Mature Amateur’s Sexual Résumé and Owners Manual


INTRODUCTION :

Welcome to my personal Sexual Résumé. As you can see, I'm a fully developed mature 46 year old pale skinned woman - a little submissive and have learnt to be sexually compliant and acquiescent, but I still have a strong sexual identity. My very curvy body is sculptured for your personal pleasure and I hope you will enjoy me to the full.
This Résumé is for all of you guys who know how to love and appreciate a real mature curvy married woman and have expressed your desire to get to know me a little better. This is like your own personal 'owners/users manual' and it really is my pleasure to offer you an intimate and very personal insight into my sexuality and to share my intimacies with you. Enjoy my experiences, likes and dislikes so you can personally explore my body both 'inside and out' -you will find I have a physical capacity for unlimited sexual response, self-love and fulfilment that I hope you will enjoy!


General description of personal attributes

Bodyshape:
Very fair skinned and a very curvy and statuesque figure. Breasts natural but becoming a bit saggy, large belly and rather strong shape legs, thighs and ass -average for my height of 5’ 4” and naturally very little body hair, and I have slender elegant fingers. Admirers have commented of my mature and sexualy satisfying curves.

Eyes:
Quite large, alluring, dreamy and inviting green colored eyes with small brown flecks- I love to see the lust and longing in a guys eyes when he is pleasuring himself inside me!

Mouth and Lips:
I have an inviting soft and satisfying mouth and full soft sensual lips and tongue. I have a desire to be kissed gently then more passionately during my arousal stages and can kiss for hours! I enjoy a partner using his tongue to probe my soft mouth between my lips in the same way he might explore my vulva with his mouth and tongue

Hair:
Natural redhead (though often described as copper/blonde) lovely soft hair and a small amount of wispy pubic hair kept neatly trimmed.

Breasts:
I love my soft natural 38inch breasts. Quite heavy and full and usually quite soft, but can become firmer sometimes depending on the time of the month. Nipples not particularly pronounced or erect, but quite sensitive (always envious of women with larger well formed suckable nipples). During arousal, the areola can become quite dimpled and sometimes as sensitive as the nipple itself. Sexual partners describe my breasts as quite heavy and find them very satisfying to handle, especially from the front whilst kissing me or feeling from behind during doggy style sex. I enjoy my breasts being expertly “manhandled” sometimes rather than just gentle fondling - I think of my breasts as my best assets. I particularly enjoy using my hands and breasts to 'capture' a hard erection, feeling my lover thrusting up and down within the pressure of my breasts. I have even enjoyed my breasts being very lightly slapped when fully aroused! Unfortunately, I never had the pleasure of being able to produce and perhaps even squirt breast milk, but would have loved to have been able to offer this as part of my sexual repertoire.

Vulva:
Noticeably large rather pink 'meaty' labia lips, particularly inner (labia minora) - becoming slightly darker in color and very swollen when I am fully aroused and become very sensitive to the touch. I certainly don't have a 'pretty pussy' and I used to be quite sensitive about having larger labia lips but lovers have commented on how satisfying it can be to gently suck the extended lips and run a tongue and fingers between them, so now I am quite proud of them and make them a feature of my arousal. I actually think the sucking attention is making them longer... particularly like the way my lips cling to a shaft during penetration. I always though guys preferred very neat ‘rosebud’ type vulva’s, but I have been getting a great many comments recently suggesting many of you prefer more defined, fuller and longer lips. I find it especially pleasurable to have a lover run an index finger between, and into my labia and rub in an upwards and slightly circular motion, occasionally letting the tip of a finger enter the entrance of my vagina for a second or two and letting his two fingers of one hand trap my labia lips in a rubbing motion.

Vagina:
When opened up, I am told it is visually attractive to many guys and particularly tight, especially for a mature married woman. I wouldn’t describe it as ‘one size fit’s all’ because I’m not normally penetrated by very large erections. My vagina hasn't been stretched by giving birth (no k*ds) and is in excellent condition and I can accommodate a reasonable range of sizes, although my preference is about 5.5” to 7.5” fully erect and not too big in girth, I have experienced slightly longer and thicker cocks during an extended period of being a shared wife that did leave me a bit stretched after sex, but my vagina soon seems to return to it's normal tightness within a few days - well not quite, but almost!
My vaginal walls become quite ribbed on arousal and when penetration occurs a partner will have to be surprisingly f*rceful in penetrating me even when I’m highly aroused and naturally lubricated. I have always been complimented about how tight I feel and I think it has come as a nice surprise to see that although visually I have quite a large vulva, I am a satisfying tight fit inside!
Once fully penetrated, I can contract and relax my muscles to add extra pleasure and can often feel the ridge of a hard glans, and on occasion, feel the pattern of a particularly pronounced veined shaft inside me. I try to regularly tone my vagina’s muscles and I am told my vagina has a wonderful delicate musky aroma and tastes delicious.

My Gyno told me my vagina is not quite as elastic as some women can be and I know the resistance of my fairly narrow vagina is always appreciated particularly when first penetrated when I'm in a new relationship or encounter.
I have a slightly shorter than average vaginal canal and before arousal the internal length of my vagina is only about 3.5inches which is shorter than some women, although of course during further arousal my vagina lengthens and widens to accommodate an erection.
When I was an adolescent girl, I was diagnosed by a gynecologist as having Vaginal Hypoplasia which meant my vagina wasn't as developed as it should be and was treated over a period of time using surgical dilators to encourage stretching and development of my vagina width and length which would allow me to have sex comfortably in the future. I used dilators of various progressive sizes for I guess about 30 minutes or so each day to acheive the desired effect of developing my vagina for sexual pleasure over quite a period of time. I became quite used to having the feeling of being "filled up" and used them for probably longer than I should have.
As I became older, on a couple of occasions I have had to deal with some issues when a lover with a longer penis has tried to thrust too deeply too soon and it has been quite painful for me. Sometimes I have had to ask my guy to wear a rubber donut shaped limiting ring over the base of his erection to limit his ability to thrust by an inch or so, especially during doggy style - this usually seems to work quite well. This is something I always keep ready by my bedside. Like most women, I don’t enjoy pressure or thrusting directly onto my cervix and find it particularly painful until I am fully aroused and my vagina has lengthened and my cervix and uterus has moved upwards(asended)allowing greater depth. Other than my “G” spot, my vagina is most sensitive around the entrance and for about the first 1½ inches inside, where there are more nerve endings, there is a little less feeling further inside.

Clitoris:
Not particularly erect even when highly aroused. Very sensitive but would prefer something a little bigger (we always do, don’t we!) Enjoy gentle sucking during cunnilingus, but once my clitoris has been fully exposed from the clitoral hood it becomes highly responsive. I love to play a vibrator over my exposed clitoris perhaps rather than my fingers, and sometimes prefer running the head of vibrator over my panties if clit is a little too sensitive. My clitoris really is the love of my life and my best friend and I treat it with the utmost respect when entering my personal pleasure zone.

G Spot:
My ‘G spot’ is located about 1.5" from vagina entrance and when I’m in the right mood is one of my absolute ‘turn-on’s – sometimes responsible for intense vaginal orgasms. When a lover places a cushion under my hips before entering me, I can sometimes move into a position that maximizes the pressure against my G spot, although it takes quite a lot of practice to get the angle just right and an erection not much longer than 6–6.5 inches in length. Sometimes I find it more arousing to have a lover place one hand flat on my abdomen and two fingers inside my vagina palm upward and apply some pressure upwards against my front vaginal wall locating my G spot and then continuing with pressure and small jerking movements with fingertips - I can orgasm quite intensely like this and have been known to squirt just a little at the same time!

Orgasms:
Clitoral - I orgasm very easily and quickly when using a vibrator. My usual pattern of enjoyment gives me one or two strong contracting orgasms, followed by two or three smaller orgasms, each one lasting a couple of seconds, always clitoral. For me, the difference between my clitoral and vaginal orgasms is where I am being stimulated. During arousal, my clitoris swells and my vagina enlarges, creating a feeling of fullness and sensitivity. My inner vaginal lips swell and change shape and my vagina sort of balloons upward. Compared with vaginal, clitoral orgasms feel "sharper"? not painful but "sharper" like lightning shooting out - if that makes sense, it feels as if your clitoris itself is exploding - then your whole body.
I enjoy vaginal orgasms usually when being fully penetrated, when the inner vaginal canal is being stimulation with a lover’s erection, which includes the G-Spot and the interior walls. My vaginal orgasms take longer to reach and feel as if my vagina is "blowing" out and exploding in an uncontrollable wave. I reach a plateau of arousal just before orgasm, and still feel very aroused immediately after orgasm, at this point if my lover is not already inside me, I very often like to experience penetration very quickly and can experience a smaller clitoral orgasm almost immediately on penetration whilst I am in a state of heightened arousal. I then aim to orgasm using the sound of his breathing as an indicator when he is just about to cum -I can orgasm easily on feeling an erection stiffen and start throbbing inside me. This orgasm is always more ‘G’ spot vaginal and although sometimes not always as intense or as powerful as a clitoral orgasm, still extremely pleasurable. It just depends on my mood and each time is slightly different.

When I am fully aroused, my cervix and uterus then move upwards (ascend)allowing greater depth for penetration, I prefer a pillow placed under me and tilt my hips and vagina further forward and upwards resulting in a deeper thrust for my lover, this allows his glans to go under my cervix, sometimes allowing his erection to hit my G Spot on nearly every thrust into me. It doesn’t always work like that I can assure you and has taken years of practice to get the angle just right for this pleasure. If it’s just not working like that for some reason, I concentrate on my clitoral pleasure instead. When I allow a lover to penetrate me in a classic missionary position, I can easily control the sensation of pleasure on my clitoris with the action of thrusting and rubbing against the base of his manhood, in addition, the feeling of a lovers balls slapping against me is extremely pleasurable too. Like many women, I don’t always have the need to actually be penetrated during a sexual encounter. If my sexual partner has been satisfied and cum over my breasts for example or perhaps occasionally in my mouth, then sometimes I prefer to be stimulated to orgasm by masturbation, it all depends on my mood and of course my partners preference on the day.
I am naturally quiet and don’t tend to make a lot of noise when I have sex or orgasm – lovers have commented on this, but it's just how I am, instead I prefer to let my sexual partners enjoy me being quite submissive and compliant, under their total control. I enjoy a lover talking to me - telling me what he’s going to do to me and what he likes! This is really erotic and exiting.
When I pleasure my chosen lovers, I really want them to feel they have started a journey of discovery with me and have experienced something different, something that they are very much in control of and above all, fully satisfied… having made the decision to let a guy pleasure both himself and me, I want him to feel he is pleased with my sexual performance and will enjoy coming back for more!


Favorite Positions:

Missionary -
Guys should not underestimate the pleasure a woman can feel when penetrated in this position and I'm no exception- they don’t call it the world’s favorite position for nothing! That wonderful feeling of being totally mastered and controlled and being helpless to stop the desire and deep thrusting - even my breathing can be restricted when held down really tight…. breathing-in when my partner lifts his body slightly just heightens my feeling of being dominated and pleasured. In the missionary position, I love it when my sexual partner removes the pillow from under my head and places it under my hips, and then cradles my head and shoulders in his arms this makes me feel extremely vulnerable, weak to resist and very willing to give pleasure. I particularly enjoy having my arms held above my head with my wrists held firmly and a partner ‘impaling’ me on his hard erection. I also love having my mouth and tongue kissed passionately in this position, especially at the moment when my partner comes inside me. It’s really easy for me to orgasm in this position. On one occasion, I found it immensely pleasurable to discover a younger sexual partner had a rather unique and distinctively erect and upwardly curved penis -this allowed him to naturally rub the tip of his shaft in just the most exiting part of my front vaginal wall during thrusting which felt fantastic and I absolutely loved sucking him as well... he was gorgeous! I love 'missionary' because I find it a huge turn on to think of a lover ‘mounting me’ and covering me and pleasuring himself on top of me when I welcome him into my body - like using me as a very willing “love machine”!

Doggy Style -
When I am being penetrated in doggy style sex, it is a completely different sensation for me, obviously I don’t benefit from the visual part of enjoying seeing my partners body unless I am facing a mirror, and I do have to be quite aroused before I can really start to enjoy being penetrated in this way. I think this is the ultimate ‘dominating’ position for any male sexual partner and I feel very exposed and helpless in controlling the desire of a lover thrusting into me and I love to have my hips held really steady with a lovers hands so he can control the movement of my body as he penetrates me. It really is quite erotic to think that doggy is really how humans were probably first intended to have sex. The actual ease of penetration in this position is really wonderful for me, and although I generally prefer a gradual penetration, I have also been taken in a fast thrusting and found that very satisfying as well, but do need plenty of lubrication. The depth that can be achieved by a lover is really astonishing and I do have ask my partner not to hurt me too much to begin with and perhaps use a limiting ring to avoid banging my cervix. I really enjoy waiting for the instruction to ‘turn over’ which I know means to go on all fours and I am ready to start my role in guiding my lover’s hard cock into my vagina. Once inside me, he can begin the natural action of thrusting, and by firmly gripping my hips, can gain extra depth. I don’t really feel in any control at this point, and it is up to me to attempt to match the thrusts with vaginal contractions if I can, and to just make sure I concentrate on keeping my vaginal muscles really tight. I usually find it more comfortable to bring my head and shoulders down to the level of the bed and expose my vagina as much as possible.
I don’t usually orgasm easily in this position as there is less stimulation for my clitoris, but I love the sensation of being filled up - I really do feel very vulnerable and submissive like this.

My role is to offer my lover as much pleasure as I possibly can, and I do enjoy contact when my partner reaches forward and caresses my breasts or rubs my clitoris for a few minutes....this makes me feel more involved. I sometimes wait for the pattern of thrusting to change, or possibly slow for a few seconds or wait until my lovers cock is momentarily withdrawn slightly until just the glans are engaged, this gives me a signal that I can quickly move my hips towards his erection and grind against his thighs, this is followed by a direct thrusting back inside me. I am aware that this position allows my lovers total visual stimulation.
I particularly enjoy my breasts and nipples rubbing on the surface of the bed in this position, or if I raise up slightly, they become very free to swing freely. Although rarely permitted, when my a lover ejaculates inside me, it really is like no other feeling I can describe. I usually sense the final thrusts leading up to his orgasm and notice that he likes to thrust as deep into me as he can gaining maximum penetration at the point when he release his cum inside me - although it’s usually in a condom. Almost every time I am being penetrated during sex, lovers have to follow my husband’s rules and wear a condom, unlike my first husband it's one thing he insists on, so therefore I don’t actually experience the spurting feeling inside me very often, but under certain circumstances and my sweet pleading, he will very occasionally agree that I can be penetrated ‘bareback’ which allows me the ultimate pleasure of feeling the unleashing warmth of ejaculating semen coating my cervix and pooling deep inside me. I have enjoyed this experience in a very exiting threesome with close friends, and watching two heavy loads of semen dripping from my vagina and one load emptied across my breasts and lips was absolutely fantastic. The feeling of having different erections inside me one after the other was really the ultimate experience for me and that’s when you really do notice differences in accommodating a guy’s size and urgency. I can assure you that being penetrated doggy style at the same time as pleasuring another guy’s cock in your mouth and then letting them cum in your mouth and pussy at the same time is just unbelievably erotic.

Straddling Partner -
I like to get on top of my lover and lower myself on his erection. I absolutely love to give the pleasure of hard fondling my breasts and nipples just inches from his face and I get to control the depth of his thrusting. When my nipples are being sucked and kissed I am in heaven! By adjusting the angle of my hips, I can pleasure my clitoris quite efficiently, penetration is not so deep in this position which can be very arousing for me and I get to see the pleasure I am giving which as you’ve guessed by now, is very important to me! Sometimes I position my legs inside his in this position, allowing me to close my vagina really tight against his erection, doesn’t allow deep thrusting in this position and have to be careful he doesn’t slip out. Love to kiss passionately in this position.

Reverse Cowgirl -
An alternative position I have tried a few times is ‘reverse cowgirl’ where I have lowered myself on to my partner’s erection facing away from him. I have also experienced this position with my lover and his 'friend' whilst lying on a bench. I lowered myself on to him in reverse so my feet were resting on the floor and leaned back ever so slightly, propping myself up by holding the sides of the bench at the same time as being able to allow my very exited second partner to stand over me, letting me take his erection into my mouth - this really was heaven……hard work but heaven and I was rewarded with his cum over my breasts. The second time we tried this arrangement, I leaned right back onto my lovers body and allowed him to start penetrating me analy, while allowing his friend to fully penetrate my vagina in a classic DP position. I can’t begin to describe the feeling of being ‘filled up’, but I did find it quite painful.


Likes and Dislikes

These days, unlike when I was younger, before a guy becomes intimate with me there is usually some form of emotional attachment and an agreement with my husband. I will then allow full access to my sexual pleasures for as long as I am desired. Like most women, I do have a need to be desired and lusted over - and loved of course. I find it really exiting to let my lovers to be in control of my pleasures…… most of the time, and to follow the rules.
Favorite position is ‘missionary’ followed by ‘doggy style’ Love to be kissed slowly and softly at first, then more passionately during missionary position sex. Doggy style is very enjoyable for me once I am fully aroused - lovers have absolutely loved to turn me over onto all fours and thrust into me, but I do try and encourage penetration in a missionary position first to open up my vagina and to allow me to orgasm. Love having my breasts and nipples fondled and manhandled in this position - the harder the better, this position appeals to my desire to be dominated and controlled sometimes – comes as bit of a surprise to some guys that I want my breasts handled like this, but it really is wonderful. Another favorite is being laid on my back on a table - with a guy standing between my legs. He can enter me at just the right angle and very often by holding my thighs or hips, can draw himself really deep inside me and it exposes my clitoris really well for stimulation my his fingers and a vibrator, and I get to see the pleasure on his face like this!
Try my best to achieve a clitoral orgasm as soon as possible as I find this allows me to concentrate more on the desires of my lover who has commented that my vagina feels different, more in control after my first orgasm
Enjoy fellatio, but cannot take a large cock too far into my mouth and don’t always enjoy a lover ‘cumming’ in my mouth – really have to be in the mood for that, mainly because of the sheer amount of semen some guys can ejaculate and the bitter taste it can leave (guys, try drinking pineapple juice beforehand - it tastes better) however I do enjoy cum on my breasts, face and neck or a little on my lips. Find it more arousing to suck my lover’s erection after he has been inside me, though the combined scent and taste can be quite heavenly.

Cumming inside me and Condoms –
Very occasionally if it has been agreed, it’s very special for me to experience a semen ejaculated into my vagina and over my cervix. I enjoy being filled with semen and particularly enjoy seeing cum slowly dripping out of my vagina after penetration. This really is an enormously erotic pleasure for me as I am not usually allowed to have semen inside me under any circumstances, and only a special person is allowed - usually with hubby watching. It's just my new hubby's rule and I respect it. The personal agreement I have with my husband, means that condoms are normally used when I engage in sexual pleasures unless otherwise agreed. Don’t really mind as it tends to allow my partners to last a little longer and I can relax a bit more.

Anal Sex -
Difficult one...so far has either been a bit of a ‘turn off’ or quite painful, tried it a few times including a limited DP session and found it quite uncomfortable (even with plenty of lubrication) and only allowed it for my partner's pleasure. To be honest, I don't find it particularly sexy. I have a very tight vagina for my age, and I suppose I feel that should give enough pleasure.

Female Lovers -
Have experienced a couple of female sexual encounters, although can’t say I was totally relaxed about the experiences to begin with, and it took me a little while to get warmed to the idea. Don’t generally consider myself bi-sexual, but being with another woman was very enjoyable and very different. When you are in a small group of people having the attentions of guys and a girl at the same time it actually seems quite natural. Again from experience, on a one-to-one basis I much prefer a female lover who is quite experienced, I don’t like to take the lead and much prefer to be led, It’s just my nature I guess. I do however, think I have a lot to offer another female lover and have been told I make a very loving and satisfying partner which is a lovely compliment from another woman!

Watching Me -
I love to be photographed or videoed particularly having sex or self-loving with toys. A lover introduced me to idea of video and I find it very arousing to post my video’s and photographs on amateur web sites and absolutely love to read the fantastic comments I get. It’s a voyeuristic thing I guess, It’s such a great feeling to know that so many guys (and occasionally some girls too) enjoy my body so much to the point of orgasm! I prefer to be filmed just being natural as I don’t like playing up to the camera, I am very much an amateur don't forget! I just can’t over emphasize how fantastic it is, knowing so many guys actually enjoy looking at my curvy body and clearly have some sexual desire to fuck me! That comes from my experiences as a 'shared' wife when married the first time round.

Wearing Lingerie –
Depending on my mood, I love to dress up in stockings and sexy lingerie, I find that wearing a thong or small panties adds to my excitement when being penetrated - as the thong rubs naturally into my vulva it helps to stimulate my clitoris. My favourite lingerie is my black basque and stockings, and I also just love being totally naked with a partner and just letting myself go

Fingering –
Have to be fairly aroused and well lubricated, but I do enjoy up to two fingers exploring inside me, exploring my “G” spot and if you are gentle, feel the tip of my cervix and run your fingers around it. My vagina is simply not big enough for fisting I’m afraid

Powered Stimulation-
Tried a ‘Sybian’ machine whilst staying with friends – absolutely fantastic especially with a small audience encouraging me! found it rather noisy though, and it doesn’t penetrate like a dildo as such (just used a short attachment probe) which suited me just fine, but went weak with the wonderful vibrations against my vulva and clitoris, wonderful feeling of power and when you straddle the Sybian – it becomes very addictive ...but had pins and needles and a little numbing afterwards!

Erection Sizes Accommodated -
As I care very much about not completely 'ruining' my vagina, the largest cock I have accommodated would probably be about 8 inches and not too thick, smallest about 5 inches. Found penetration by largest penis very painful and uncomfortable to begin with and actually made me cry. Smallest penis size by contrast was quite comfortable and very enjoyable, proving that all partners can satisfy me. I really don’t have an issue with erection size, just enjoy the experience. Guys you should really stop concerning yourself with this size issue – it really does not matter. It’s the guy I’m having a sex experience with, not just his equipment!

Toys –
Collection of sex toys inc: standard 7” vibrator (variable speed), Rabbit vibrator with clitoral stimulator, Hitachi ‘Magic Wand’. My standard vibrator is used most often and gives pleasure run up and down labia and around clitoris. Rabbit is thicker with internal rotating balls that work on vagina entrance, whilst ‘Rabbit ears’ work on clitoris and is adjustable. Love to play with Rabbit whenever I get the chance but can become quite addictive and it’s a bit big for me, so restrict use to about once a week.
Magic Wand is wonderful for massages as well as sexual satisfaction. Vibrations can be quite strong, so need to be in the mood for this weapon of mass orgasm! I can become almost comatose using my wand and can quite literally let it play around my vulva and clitoris for ages - cuming when I choose. I have recently received the “G” spotter” and the straight penetration attachment for my wand, each of the attachments is about 4” long so it’s just right and I am just getting used to them - results look very promising though so far!
Generally favor vibrations against my vulva and clitoris rather than inside my vagina. Like many women, I don’t need to be penetrated to enjoy sex and quite often don’t have penetrative sex at all. Generally play with my Magic Wand every day or so when I am on my own (never runs out of batteries!)

PERSONAL SUMMARY
Fairly quiet personality but have always had a strong sexual drive and determination that does not seem to diminish with age! I am very self-confident about my sexuality, independent and described as highly sexually desirable and 'fuckable' by guys(their words not mine!)

I am now a happily married woman and enjoy a loving relationship with a much older second husband. We don’t have a conventional physical relationship due to his dysfunction problems (can't acheive a strong erection), but we do share closeness. This relationship whilst not ideal works particularly well for both of us and it is his pleasure to provide well for me - he is always aware of all my day-to-day sexual activities and I fully respect his wishes. What matters is that I don’t feel I absolutely belong to him, nor does he wish to have exclusivity rights over my body - but that I can find pleasure with whoever I choose whilst still respecting his wishes. One current main surrogate husband, and occasional sexual partners. Strong self-lover, and thoroughly enjoy being watched. I believe my sexual role is to offer enjoyment in most ways I can - my own fulfilment is always secondary when I am with my chosen lover


FANTASIES
I think it’s fair to say that my fantasies vary from hour to hour and sometimes they can change several times within each hour – depends what’s running through my mind and how adventurous I’m feeling and that’s why this is the hardest section to write. I guess it’s a result of all those experiences running around in my mind!

I have read that these thoughts are a way of releasing deep sub-conscious thoughts that might relate to something in a person’s past…. perhaps they might represent some longing for affection or love or even shame. I wonder if some of my fantasies are an attempt to change events in my mind… to move away from the real truth so I can make up visions and thoughts to provide a different ending. I think I want to be dominated sometimes because that’s my nature, but in a different way - I want my experiences to be a little more on my terms…I want to have some say in how far you might like to go with me and let you experience pleasures that perhaps your wife would not agree to… it’s ok, you can do that with me if you want. I suppose I want to prove to myself that I am capable of reliving these thoughts without personal responsibility. The weird thing is that my fantasies are at their strongest when I’m feeling sexually aroused and I can feel a little uncomfortable by some of my thoughts later on.
If I had to list any of my fantasies (but not in any order) they would include having really great sex with a new partner. I always find it exhilarating to give myself - especially the first time and doing something totally forbidden and being very submissive (which is my nature). I also think it’s a fantastic turn-on to think guys find me irresistible!
I really do get off by the idea of being watched by unknown persons as you will have guessed by now - It’s the voyeur thing and very exiting. I love the opportunity to be laid out on display with an audience whilst engaged in self loving or allowing a partner to consume my pleasures!

Group sex is high up in my fantasy league table - I know from experience the freedom of being naked and fully exposed to the pleasures of different guys. The sheer pleasure I received from feeling different hands groping and exploring my body and ultimately penetrating my body simultaneously it’s just so erotic, every woman should experience this in their lives, even if it’s just once!
Another fantasy which I think about a lot is the interacial theme. I admit that I am a little frightened and intimidated by some black guys, but nevertheless often imagine a delicious encounter and I have visions of my paleness contrasting with his very dark skin. I know that some black guys have a thing about pale skinned women so you never know…I might just get lucky one day....oh well, I can dream and did I mention I love redhaired guys!


LOVING ME
As you know by now, I am naturally self-confident but quite submissive and enjoy being 'mastered’ by my lovers – I like you to be in control, so I can be instructed, and genuinely believe I can offer a great deal of pleasure to my partners and viewers, this fills me with an enormous sense of achievement.
You have all enjoyed my videos and photo’s, and now you know my intimate secrets and desires – how can I give you pleasure and satisfy myself at the same time? well it all depends on my moods. Women are much more affected than men with mood changes because of our hormones, and this can be wonderfully positive because it gives me the chance to explore the deepest desires of my sexuality. I sometimes enjoy watching videos of couples and guys or reading your messages and comments, and within minutes can experience changes that make me feel really exited and responsive and want to try different experiences. What I do sometimes long for is a slightly different way of being treated, I enjoy a soft sensuous sexual encounter sometimes, but other times I just want to be taken more aggressively, even roughly with little foreplay. Show me how exited I make you -I want you to come back for more and just keep on enjoying me


THANK YOU
A big personal thank you for sharing in my intimate sexuality…..and to you sexy guys out there who send me the most wonderful photos and stuff, where do you get your ideas from! – I do hope that when you see my photographs and view my video’s you will be able to appreciate my mature curvy body even more now as you have explored every single inch of me and know all my intimate secrets!

I take enormous pleasure in knowing you enjoy watching me indulge in my sexual pleasures whether it’s with my lover or some “self-loving”, I’m always here for you to enjoy and don’t forget so keep sending me encouraging messages!
So whatever you’re circumstances and however you decide to enjoy your women - or love and appreciate your women…perhaps by watching and playing, or by indulging in the depths of a good woman - I wish you a long and satisfying time!

Sharing Wife �

Shared Wife � A Married Woman�s Perspective

A Little Background: I Married my first husband when I was still quite young and as a natural redhead I seemed to have a mutual attraction to my hubby who was also redhaired and quite attractive with his longer hair and outcrop of red pubic hair to match mine. He said we were "kindred spirits". He was quite tall and really skinny and I used to love looking at his cock protruding through his wiry red hair ready for me. Although we were very much in love, we never had ki*s which is something I couldn't seem to give him (I had trouble conceiving and hubby had a low sperm count)so it never happened.
Over a period of time I began to realize that he could be extremely possessive and controlling towards me which unfortunately had a potentially disastrous and corrosive effect on our relationship over the following years. He could become extremely jealous at times and was always wanting me to tell him every little detail of my past experiences (which wasn't much) and almost as a contradiction he started to develop a fascination to want to see me having sex with another man, and after quite a while pressured me into accepting the idea in principal just as a fantasy. I read somewhere that this is way up in a man's fantasy league table along with watching their wife with another woman so I didn't give it much thought.

Over the next year or so he made it plain he wanted the fantasy to become a reality as long as it was on his terms and provided he was fully involved and as his wife, he expected me to go along with this idea.
At the time I felt he didn't really listen to what I wanted or really felt and I was absolutely sure I didn't really want to commit myself to another guy sexually, or emotionally at that point in my life just to satisfy my hubby fantasies - although I did recognise I was becoming increasingly frustrated,I cared about him but didn�t really feel that close bond of love like I used to and I suppose I had resigned myself to a rather boring, unfulfilled and frankly pedestrian sex life while we were still together... perhaps waiting for someone else to make me happy What I did know was that I could see the turmoil that my hubby was going through and the fact he was extremely excited about this sharing idea Our 'pillow talk' was always about how we would both enjoy the experience and how it would bring a new dimension to our relationship. It was definately his fantasy and not mine, I have not met a woman yet who initiated the idea of "sharing" in their relationship, but what did happen over time I suppose, is that I began to accept the idea of his fantasy. Our sex life wasn�t ever that great and often consisted of me adopting a 'doggy style' position, while he would pseudo 'fuck me' from behind with a vibrator telling me to imagine it was another guy and how wonderful it was going to feel for real. It didn't really do much for me having a vibrator thrust into me like that and really started to think is that all there is? I was a sexy curvy woman with large natural breasts and an appetite for love, I had been told many times how attractive and sexually desirable I was... and just knew someone out there would appreciated me more than this!

Making Plans: After living with his fantasy for a while, eventually he announced he was going to take a positive step in making plans about how he would 'select' a suitable additional partner for me, and at this point I have to say I started to get real scared, things were moving quickly and I really wasn't sure I was ready for being shared or even what it might involve for all I knew, hubby might want to share me with more than one guy and at this point I firmly believed he meant as a threesome or perhaps a couple swap. I told him I wasn't prepared to watch him having sex with another woman and I needed to understand exactly what role my hubby wanted to play in all this and what did he expect from me - did he want to be some kind of voyeur or very much in control? he admitted that I had it all figured out wrong and he just wanted to watch me enjoying myself and being aroused by another guy. I had done a little research into sharing and cuckolding and I really didn't think any of that fitted my husband. I realised he wanted a situation that was going to be different from me just dating a guy as an extra to our marriage like a surrogate hubby and I don't think I really knew what I wanted or him for that matter.
My self-esteem was pretty low at this time and he would casually invite 'friends' over and encourage me to flirt and make it clear I was available. This actually turned out to be an extremely embarrassing situation for myself and his friends and clearly wasn't going to work. Eventually it became a total obsession with him and I realized he was not only becoming extremely self-deprecation as far as I could see, at times I realized he desperately wanted to be humiliated by me and perhaps other guys I guess.

I suppose I was starting to understand the situation now, he wanted the excitement of allowing and ultimately even watching as a voyeur someone somehow better than him pleasuring me in a way he believed he could not. At that time, his own feelings of being sexually inadequate, I felt were understandable due to his lack of interest in me, but totally defined our own sexual relationship. He kept telling me how he wanted to watch in detail how my desirable body responded to being pleasured by another 'better endowed' guy in our bed and to perhaps clean me up afterwards. He wanted to see how I kissed another guy and how my body enjoyed being brought to orgasm, he even wanted to look into my eyes when another guy was cuming deep inside me. I took his coldness and uncharacteristic lack of jealousy about the situation as an indicator of how little he actually loved me, but he denied this and said it was because he "loved me so much, he wanted to share me with others" that could offer what he could not. He said it was his gift to me to take another lover with his blessing! He wanted to become what I now believe to be a sort of voyeuristic cuckold and yet he didn't seem to fit the normal pattern of cuckold behavior, I still felt he wanted to control me and the situation, and everything I had read about cuckolding seemed to suggest the opposite - that the wife was in control and hubby did what she said at all times, for example when we went out anywhere he would constantly question me about who I liked the look of and what I imagine I would like them to do with me, I started to join in his little games and gave him graphic accounts of what I might like a guy to do with me, I think I finally started to 'buy into' the idea and finally agree for the sake of our relationship and my sanity and nothing more, I have to say I had never seen him so excited and aroused, which I later read is partly about sperm competition amongst males impregnating the same woman and partly about humiliation and voyerism.

At this point in my life I recognised my feelings of being extremely unfulfilled and was harboring resentment for feeling this way with hubby being so ready to share me. Anyone who knows me, also knows I am a rather quiet submissive woman and I knew he was exploiting this with his coercion and although not in my nature, for the first time in our relationship I realised I might have some control over what he was allowed to do with me and how I pleased myself, even choosing when I allowed him access to my pleasures - although angry, I felt I was becoming more empowered at the same time and told him straight that if he wanted me to have another lover to satisfy his sexual voyeuristic pleasures, then he would have to accept that he was definately not going to be in control and I was going to impose restrictions on his sexual behavior. If he really wanted to be a cuckold husband then he better start by acting like one!

Choosing My Partner: once we had reached this stage, hubby really wanted a permanent arrangement, and after much deliberation, encouragement and eventually an order from me, hubby approached Mike, the ex-husband of my best friend who we have known for some time as one half of a couple and we trusted. My girlfriend was off the scene now after finding a new guy and moving away. Knowing he was living on his own, hubby quite literally offered me to him almost as a business transaction and Mike willingly accepted the idea of becoming my consensual partner. Because he was separated from his wife I guess didn't feel quite so bad about the situation and what my hubby didnt know about, was a while back Mike and myself had become just a little bit close after the breakdown of his marriage and I had confided in him about my unhappiness and my situation with my hubby. I was very flattered as we clearly had a mutual sexual attraction for each other but had never acted on it. I knew he didn't play around and was completely trustworthy, so I felt very lucky that he really did want to become my first sexual partner of choice. The thing I was a little concerned with, was that my girlfriend had told me about Mike's sexual demands... about how he could play rough with her occasionally - I decided to put this at the back of my mind and just enjoy what was on offer.

We met up with Mike socially a couple of times and hubby talked quite a bit about what he had planned to get a reaction about how Mike felt about the situation... I knew deep down Mike was delighted with this arrangement as he had always wanted me but he certainly didn't tell my hubby about our closeness, he just played along with the situation. I spoke to Mike on the phone a few times and we met up in a local bar one afternoon and over a bottle of wine (or two) he told me he had been thinking about us a great deal, he got me exited telling me how he always wanted to make love to me and was looking forward to pleasuring me and running his hands over my pale smooth skin, particularly my breasts, but if this was going to work then we would need to get things straight right from the start... that this was going to be no ordinary sexual relationship, we were both going to enjoy pleasures we had been denied in our respective marriages and I could expect new demands and experiences in this new venture and there would be no going back.

I admit he did make me feel special and was delighted that he asked if I was ok with this rather than just assuming, but as nervous as hell not knowing what to expect. I felt I had to make it clear to Mike, that unlike a monogamous relationship, he had to accept the idea that I would in effect have two sexual partners and whilst I was still married, my hubbys role had to be accepted and totally fulfilled, otherwise it was not going to work. I was not prepared to outright reject my hubby and explained to Mike that he wasn't dating me in the conventional sense, we could become lovers if he wanted, but our sexual liaisons were going to dependant on how we involved hubby - Mike was in effect going to be my 'surrogate hubby'. I think Mikes main concerns were my sexual availability and privacy and if he would be expected to 'perform' in front on my hubby as an onlooker and how I was going to react making out with him in front of my own hubby? Mike wanted to know if I going to be restrained and inhibited with hubby watching, or quite the opposite? This really was new territory for Mike and I did share my feelings with him about my availability and how from now on I was going to be in control.


The First Time:
Hubby invited Mike over one evening and before he arrived, we both acknowledged that this was to be my first sexual encounter with my new lover and 'right out the blue', he told me that he wanted Mike to take the lead. He said I was to forget that he was my hubby and to treat him as a subservient, voyeuristic partner

I showered and although I did not know what to expect, decided not to use my vaginal dilator to opn myself up, thought I would make myself as tight as possible and dressed casually and as the evening progressed, hubby suggested I might like to change into something special he had bought for me and was in the bedroom. He told me it would make me feel almost 'virginal' for our first time together. I left them in the lounge talking and could hear hubby telling Mike what he thought I liked in bed - was I so predictable? Excitedly I changed into the lacy white 'baby-doll' nightie that was laid out for me. I slipped it on together with the white panties but kept my silk robe on as I returned barefoot and came and sat with hubby on the far couch exited, nervous and a little scared, I felt like I was eighteen years old! Hubby came right out and told Mike he recognised that he would make a more satisfying sexual partner for me and reassured him that he had a free rein over me when we were all together and he wouldn't interfere in what he wanted to try as long as I agreed to continue the relationship, he told Mike he was offering me to him as a 'gift' fron one guy to another, and made us both promise there would be no illicit hooking up without sharing the details with him first.

After quite a few glasses of wine and a lot of encouragement and reassurance from hubby and from Mike, I got up and nervously walked over to where Mike was waiting for me... I knew this was truly a walk of no return - I was knowingly going to share my body between two guys who's thoughts at that very moment were motivated by sexual desire and I suppose lust for me - one was supposed to love me and all he wanted was to literally give me away to another guy as a gift- to share me for his own perverse sexual enjoyment, and the other only too willing to pleasure himself using MY body in front of MY hubby... it's no wonder I was so nervous but this was the time, and as one of life's sub missives, I felt I was ready.
I didn't really know what was expected of me and I stopped for a moment and looking over my shoulder, hubby was waving me forward, 'this was going to be it girl' I thought, and with hubby watching I smiled, lifted my robe and straddled Mike, with my back to hubby shaking my long hair loose. I was so unsure to begin with but Mike stroked my hair and gently kissed my trembling lips for quite a few minutes he untied my robe and slipped it off my shoulders and it seemed only natural to allow him to kiss me more passionately on my neck and lips and reached under my baby doll at the front and I gave him full access to my willing naked breasts and nipples, it felt fantastic! - I suppose deep down I had longed for this to happen for a long time and could see he was becoming increasingly aroused; I could feel his manhood straining against his pants � hungry for me... that's a wonderful feeling! He kept telling me how sexy I was looking and as I glanced at hubby and could see he was becoming really agitated and was sitting awkwardly on the edge of his seat, 'please don't stop us' I thought and he suggested that we go into the bedroom so Mike could see what was on offer.
Mike immediately suggested it would be better if just the two of us spent some time together first and he would join us soon. Hubby was surprisingly resigned to this and without asking me, told Mike he had his permission to do whatever he liked with me - that he was in control, that I was a gift for him to unwrap.
I was so nervous when I heard him say that. I was becoming so aroused and exited away from hubby's glare that we kissed passionately and greedily the minute we were alone. I was determined to give myself up to him completely, after all, hubby had given me away and from now on I was Mikes woman to do as he wished! He quickly stripped and joined me on the bed.. we held each other and I was able to relax enough to let his mouth and fingers enjoy every inch of my very willing and highly aroused body, his hands grasping my ass and my breasts through my baby- doll as he really started to enjoy me - I just knew this was right - it was as if I was releasing my feelings of resentment and anger against my hubby, I had this romantic notion that I might get pregnant, although unlikely.. what a thought! I leaned up and we kissed like two young lovers, opening my legs and letting him finger me through my panties and minutes later like a whore I knelt between his legs and moved my head towards his wonderful erection, much longer and thicker that hubby's, certainly the biggest I had ever had... this was something I had longed for in my dreams and I gently kissed his shaft leaving saliva from my mouth and then slowly opened my mouth wider to accommodate his wonderful glans in my wet mouth...I just kept him there a moment then moved my mouth down a little further pushing his foreskin down with my tight lips before moving my head and mouth up and down, simulating what he was ultimately going to feel and enjoy inside me, although I knew it was going to be a challenge to accommodate him inside me.
Mike groaned in ecstasy and held my head between his hands controlling the depth and speed of my mouth. I didn't want Mike to cum just yet and after a few minutes I moved up his body and straddled him, I started to slide my wet labia up and down his erection... teasing him and watching the intense pleasure in his eyes as I pulled my panties to one side with my fingers and gently guided his exquisite erection just inside me an inch or so... it was a feeling of such intense pleasure for me as I slowly lowered myself on to him as he penetrated me a couple of painful inches, then a bit deeper... God, he was such a tight fit inside me, even though I was so wet I thought it would never fit... he knew that I had never given birth and I had told him I have a 'narrow, short vagina'.. he whispered that I felt like a virgin inside. In the excitement I whispered that he could 'ruin me' if he liked... God, what on earth was I thinking, I was hardly a virgin!

As I leaned up on my arms desperately trying to come to terms with the fantastic erection stretching my insides. Mike ripped open the front of my nightie and pushed my body upright, the nightie slipped down my shoulders holding them back and restricting my arms, he told me how gorgeous I was he as he continued to fondle my now aching exposed breasts, he clearly loved the larger size! he was being really firm, kneading and squeezing them really firmly in his big hands rubbing my nipples between his fingers which was exactly what I needed, I was powerless to stop him even if I'd wanted to, he reached up and took each nipple in turn in his mouth, sucking and nipping them almost to extreme, letting me cry out on every bite, he playfully slapped my breast just to test my reaction... and although a little surprised for a moment I realised I actually enjoyed the sensation and smiling, I offered my other breast for his attention - I thought to myself this is something only a woman can really know and I certainly had bigger breasts than his ex and could see how he was enjoying the experience.

As he continued to pleasure my large breasts in a way no one had ever done before, I was concentrating on controlling his depth inside me and savoured every inch of his large veined shaft sliding into my very depths, his engorged glans stretching me as never before - I'd never ever felt like this with hubby or anyone else.
After a few delicious minutes he gripped my hips and firmly and purposely rocked me forward and backwards on his cock as I leaned fully backwards letting my long hair brush against my skin and thrusting my breasts out. A few moments later, he 'man-handled' me off him and rolled me over and on to my back and tore my panties right off, and kneeling on the floor between my open legs he buried his face in my labia, opening me wide with his fingers - licking and sucking in a way I had never enjoyed so much in my life before. This guy had nothing to prove, but was a fantastic lover, God knows why his wife left him. I opened my legs wide and he pushed and probed his tongue inside me and rubbed my engorged clitoris with his fingers, my brain was flooded with pleasure and my back arched as I could feel my stomach muscles ripple, my whole body jerked in a spasm of delicious clitoral orgasms. I had already cum several times by now and was determined to satisfy Mikes pleasures as I leaned up on my elbows to look into his lustful eyes. He got up off the floor and for a lingering moment let me enjoy the sight of his wonderful uncut erect cock in front of my eyes, then he grasped my legs and man-handled me roughly turning me over on my front. I moved up on to all fours and adopted the doggy position for my new lover, thrusting my ass out for his pleasure... I remember letting out a scream as he penetrated me much harder and deeper now gripping my hips with both hands so I couldn't struggle I remember the pain of him banging into me and after what seemed just a few deep thrusts... he exploded inside me. I could feel his shaft pulsing as he unleashed an incredible amount of hot semen inside me coating my unprotected cervix on every deep thrust. If I ever felt stretched and ruined, that was the moment!
I turned my head around to allow him to kiss me for a few moments and he slipped out of me with a wonderful wet sucking noise, I turned over on to my back and opened my legs wide and used my fingers to show him my open, stretched pussy and could see he was becoming hard all over again! He climbed on top of me and entered me again, more easily now but with the same urgency, his arms under my head and shoulders holding me up tight against his chest and neck, and this time his thrusting wasn't quite so fast but he was being quite aggressive, I could still feel him reaching the very end of my pussy although it wasn't painful any more, he was pushing his semen deep inside me and I knew that any moment there would be more to follow!

Hubby�s Reaction: When Mike had finished with me, we kissed for a while and he returned to the lounge walking naked and unashamed in front of hubby making it clear he had enjoyed me to the full before grabbing a beer from the bar refrigerator and sitting down, I heard him tell hubby what a good girl I had been and suggested that he might like to take a look in on me as I was waiting for him. I was still on my back, and I opened my legs wide and drew my knees up and remember the genuine surprise on hubby's face as he came into the room, he was quite shocked to see my torn clothing and the 'mess' I was in... my baby doll was open and ripped at the front and my breasts and nipples clearly having been enjoyed. My hair was completely messed up and he could see a whole load of semen between my legs. I think he was genuinely worried about me and asked if I was ok and said he had heard me screaming out and didn't know if he should come into the bedroom or not.
Once he realised I had been enjoyed in a way even he hadn't anticipated, he striped and lay down on the bed naked and we kissed passionately... this was 'our' time now and although I felt very vulnerable, I asked him if this was what he really wanted, he smiled and asked if he could 'clean me out' and for the first time I felt I had some power over him as I instructed him to insert his index finger inside me, feeling and spreading the semen from my well used stretched pussy before allowing him to greedily lick his finger clean, the taste, the smell, it just seemed to come naturally to him as he started gently licking me out with the tip of his tongue. In a moment of complete bravado I told him to scoop some of Mikes cum onto his tongue and mouth and then he was to let it drip into my mouth, then kiss me passionately, I can't begin to tell you how wonderful it felt having my hubby kissing my mouth he was desperate to fuck me and I told him he could have 'sloppy seconds' (or thirds!) and that was all that was on offer....I told him his duty at that moment was to use his cock to push Mikes cum as deep as he could inside me and when he penetrated me it felt just great, it felt like I had my old hubby back!
Brazenly acting out my new role, I reminded him that from now on Mike owned my pussy when he was our guest, only he would give permission as to what I allowed hubby to do with me and if he could cum inside me. I thought he would immediately reject this idea but I could see how exited he was becoming.. he looked at me with total acceptance in his eyes. To add to his humiliation, I told him in future I might insist he wears a condom dependant on my wishes, he didn't argue but just whispered that he couldn't get over how loose I felt and you know what, I so enjoyed him saying that It was like a badge of honour.. knowing what had just been inside me before, and for the first time in my life I enjoyed two guys inside me within minutes of each oher, although I felt as loose as hell and very wet!

The Aftermath: We talked of nothing else after my 'initiation' and hubby wanted every single detail and to re-enact what we had done together, he insisted I wore the same torn baby doll and panties that I had entertained Mike in. Hubby couldn�t wait to invite Mike over again, and Mike and myself decided to invite hubby to sit and watch us making out at close quarters. Hubby's face was a picture of hopelessness and jealousy, coupled with a look of total lust in his eyes. I played the total whore and with a new found confidence asked Mike to show hubby how I liked my breasts and nipples roughly fondled and playfully slapped.
Mike was naturally a little anxious about hubby watching us to begin with, having never 'performed' in front of another guy like that before, but I guess the lust overcame his fears and he started to relax and enjoy me, he almost ignored hubby from that point on just letting me do all the talking and from across the room hubby watched with some fascination as Mike quickly and f*rcefully penetrated me bareback with his large veined erection in the missionary position. After a few minutes we both allowed hubby to join us on the bed and what I particularly enjoyed was 'allowing' him to kiss me and hold my hand when Mike was actually fucking me, I took great pleasure in telling him how fantastic and big Mike's cock felt inside me. When Mike had finished with me, I let hubby have access to my already satisfied body, but Mike was never really interested in watching us make out.

A couple of weeks later hubby suggested a chastity device thinking that might prove exiting for us and he delighted in locking his cock into the plastic cage and surrendering control by giving me the key on a cord around my neck between my breasts, he stripped me and I masturbated in front of him and allowed him to rub his caged penis up against my ass and against my pussy he begged me to unlock him and allow him to relieve his sexual energy... although it really wasn't my nature, it was quite gratifying for once to control him like this. Very much at my hubby's request, I used to allow Mike to make love to me whilst hubby was caged and powerless to relieve himself as he sat and watched us then joined us on the bed. I used to hold his straining caged cock in my hand as Mike enjoyed me, telling him what he was missing and how good and big Mike felt inside me and how he was stretching me. A few times Mike let him suck his cock usually immediately after he had cum inside me and occassionaly he would pull out of me to allow hubby to suck him for a few moments...which although he was totally straight, he said he actually thoroughly enjoyed but drew the line at cuming in my hubby mouth. As my confidence and sexual awareness grew, I absolutely loved the attention (and escape) and began to welcome the idea of becoming a 'shared wife' and allowing new partners into my life to satisfy my new liberated lifestyle. This was just the start!

Did it last? well yes, for quite a while and I was very happy, but like all things in life the situation became complicated by my hubbys increasing demands and my own feelings of empowerment over him, not to mention my strong feelings to Mike as a real lover and not just someone I provided sexual pleasures to. We all moved on I guess, Mike found another woman he fell in love with and eventually moved away, and I moved into a whole new world of sharing still aided by my hubby but with a whole new agenda.


Private Sharing Parties
When in my late thirties and early forties and after I had gained the experiences as a shared wife, and yes I was still with my first husband, we started to visit different out of state and very private house parties (My husband was starting to become very secretive about this time and I still don't know to this day how he arranged the invites). We had already attended a large and very noisy club once before, and I felt extremely intimidated by the experience and couldn't wait to leave, so naturally I was nervous about this invitation. I needn�t have been concerned as the host and his wife made us feel very welcome and engaged from the moment we arrived. The venue was so different to a club, just like any other house party, there were areas to meet and have a relaxing drink and talk and get to know other guests. Contrary to many peoples beliefs about these parties, most of the guys wore smart clothing and some of the women wore really glamorous dresses as they might at any party, people certainly didn't walk around naked in the main rooms!
I wore black high heels and stockings and dressed in a long black �strappy� evening dress, with a lacy black bra and panties underneath which made me feel quite seductive and this became my 'signature' dress code for these events.
At the first party we attended we just had a few drinks in the main lounge areas and talked to other guys and couples mainly to get to know people. I would say that many of the couples were fairly experienced regular 'swingers' and I felt it best to encourage my husband be open and honest about our thoughts and expectations and the fact we were new to this lifestyle and to make it clear that my husbands only real interest was to allow me access to other guys for pleasure so he could watch. Although I stayed with my husband to begin with on our first visit, we were approached by other couples and a couple of guys during the evening. I enjoyed a long lingering kiss with one of these guys right in front of hubby and he was really keen to get to know us better. After a couple of visits we has chosen our favorites and this gave my husband and myself an opportunity to choose and agree on a suitable partner or partners for me. My husband never took a sexual partner in all our visits but would actively watch my activities.

Attending this venue for the second time, much later in the evening out host suggested my presence had been requested and would be greatly appreciated in what was known as the 'warm up and play' room (we called it the 'groping room') as there were a couple of guys very interested in me. I had already visited this room on our previous visit just to watch couples enjoy themselves in this more open area and I have to say I was extremely exited by the idea. Once it was established that I felt ok with this rather more public area, and my hubby approved (to be honest he didn't really have much choice), three or four fellow guests were invited and followed us upstairs into the room. I was feeling really nervous and for the next few moments, stood at the end of the bed while the guys watched. My hubby kissed me and deliciously stripped me down to my black bra, panties and stockings and high heels, and as I stepped out of my dress allowing it to fall to the floor he told me how gorgeous I looked and gently guided me and laid me on the low 'stage-like' bed in the center of the fairly small room. He turned around and announced to the two guys who had joined us and who I had been admiring earlier that they might like to join me on the bed and that I was ready to offer them some pleasure! One of them quickly joined me (he had stripped down to his shirt and underwear and as my hubby stepped away he started to kiss and fondle me before I helped him completely remove his clothes. I can tell you there was absolutely no pressure from anyone, and knowing that both my husband and a few other guests watching me enjoying myself and being 'pleasured' was very liberating.

The second guy quickly joined in, and lying there with two great looking guys attending me was just a fabulous experience and I was so excited and aroused as I kissed both guys in turn taking care not to excite them to much at this stage. I looked around for my husband and he gave me a look of total approval and I was surprised that one or two more guys had come into the room to watch. I lay back and let their hands follow the contour of my willing body, feeling fingers removing my panties and unclasp my bra. I felt smooth fingers enter my very wet pussy and at the same time felt my breasts being roughly fondled, just as I like it. I had pretty much abandoned my inhibitions by now and welcomed the attention and the admiring encouragement from the other guests. I really felt I was enjoying the experience as much as I wanted at that moment and it really was heaven! For the next few minutes, I decided to offer myself in any way that would satisfy my new admirers and please my watching hubby. Although I was high, I lay on my back and one of the guys started to lick my very wet pussy gently sucking and teasing my clit to distraction as the other guy let me suck his gorgeous veined cock. After a few minutes of heaven, I took the first guy deep inside me, we kissed for a few minutes and I asked if he was enjoying fucking me, he didn't cum inside me and the second guy took his place between my legs - I felt such a whore and thoroughly enjoyed every minute although my hubby did actually stop any more guys taking advantage of me as I could easily accommodated more guys!, by now one of my new admirers had unrolled his condom and he came into my mouth as I was being fucked.
After they had finished, I got up from the bed and was going to clean myself up and rinse my mouth and dress, but my hubby grabbed my wrist telling me how much he enjoyed my performance and pulling me into a private room. For the next hour we had the most fantastic sex we had had in ages, he stripped quickly and started by kissing my still cum covered mouth cleaning me with his tongue and he quickly penetrated me. Wow, three guys in one evening... wonderful... and that was just the start!

Although this was very much an 'up-market' private house party by invitation only, hosted in a very large private home with mostly couples attending, a couple of moderators were in evidence to oversee patrons behaviour which was reassuring I guess, although to some extent, by virtue of the fact you were making yourself available if you so wished, there was a fairly free approach. There were usually between perhaps 60 to 100 people attending, some guys, but mostly people who arrived as a couple and only one or two single women. Guests appeared to be mostly quite wealthy people between thirty and fifty five perhaps, and considerably less outrageous than you might find in main stream clubs and usually extremely interesting and charming if not quite open about their intentions, but respectful. After all, they were requesting your pleasures. I was really surprised by how many guys prefered the more mature woman and I was invited by other couples and guys as a guest to private homes which was extremely flattering. I have to say there were recreational d**gs used by some of the guests (which would not have been allowed in a normal club scene) and I did see some evidence of this in some of the private rooms.

As we became more regular guests of this venue, you can imagine over the course of the evening I would became unbelievably exited and aroused and my husband would encourage me to watch other couples or groups of girls and guys enjoying themselves or take a couple of guys into the viewing area ...after all, that's what it was all about. Sometimes I might take a partner into one of the more secluded or private areas where I allowed myself some personal pleasure. Once I had overcome my fears especially after the 'warm up and play' room experience, I thoroughly enjoyed both having, and watching others having sex in the full view of other guests which is fantasically liberating. Believe me, I was usually so aroused I loved every minute especially watching the reaction and feeling the encouragement of other guests. To my shame, on one occassion I was so exited I let several guys enjoy me and later recounted every minute of my experiences with my husband for his exquisite and painful pleasure - before allowing him access to my well used body.

Day 1: “Beginning My Journey of Discovery”


I hesitated for a moment, checking my composure, and with a deep breath I confidently walked toward the arrival hall pulling my wheeled case behind me.
It seemed like only a few minutes ago I was staring out of the small airplane window watching the sunlit clouds disappear and the world below re-appear beneath my gaze. What was to await me I wondered in this new world?
I scanned the faces on the left as I slowly moved forwards and I recognized you at once and smiled. We joined each other at the end of the barrier and for the first time I Continue»