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i have a bedtime every night
wake up time each morning
He controls when i am allowed to masturbate
He controls when i am allowed to cum
He controls when i get to wear panties
He has me kneel every night for 10 minutes and focus my thoughts on Him and serving Him
He has a dog collar that has a tag on it that reads His name and slut that i wear when at home, He selected and purchased a necklace for me to wear in public to keep my mind focused on Him.
When we speak online, He gives me permission for any time i need to leave my computer.
Oh look! adults said, shes a Civil War buff, how darling. Grown-ups would give the girl books to encourage her interest in history.
The bloody battles arent too bad, the monster said, bored.
The monster grew as the girl grew. She would feed her monster snacks, trying to keep it quiet. The monster devoured Variations, Bill and Debbies Bondage, and Justine. Oh how happy the monster was when she brought it the Story of O.
In college the girl got pretty. She kissed the boys, trying to imitate the passion she saw in movies. The monster snickered. The girl thought maybe was gay, so she kissed a girl. The monster howled.
One day, the girl met an older man. He knew right away she had a monster because he had one, too! His monster adored her monster they loved playing together. But the girl watched her monster playing and was horrified. She locked her monster in a cage and ran away as fast as she could.
Let me OUT! the monster screamed, shaking the bars.
Years passed. The girl became a woman her monster became a Beast. She tried so many things to satiate it booze, weed, workaholism, extreme sports. She peeked into the cage.
Fuck you, the Beast said thickly, Im still here.
One fine spring day, the Beast asked ever so politely if it could watch people playing.
Real people, really playing, the Beast said, Then I promise to get right back into my cage and be quiet.
What harm could there be in that? the woman thought. It went so well. It satisfied the Beast for quite a while... but not forever of course. Soon the Beast wanted to come out again. And why not? The woman was learning that her Beast was fun a riot actually.
Come on, the Beast whispered in her ear, This man just wants to swat you. Try it one time, just so you know. For once and for all.
A month later it was a belt.
Get back in your cage, the woman begged, eyes tearing, pussy dripping.
Right! the Beast laughed.
Well, at least I tried, the woman whispered, dropping to her knees.
Requirements:
paper for writing
pen or pencil
some way of displaying a photo
optionally, a towel, blanket or yoga mat on which to kneel
First, you are to find a photo, a single image that seems to you to most closely portray the nature of dominance. Try to find a one of good quality and size. (If you have a Dominant and are slightly more daring, have your Dominant choose an image for you. I suggest picking a few images and asking him to chose one.) Once you have a photo, write down why you chose it as an image that you believe portrays the nature of dominance.
Then, for one week (seven days), twice each day you are to kneel facing the image and stare at the image for not less than five minutes at a time. As you stare at the image (yes, you are allowed to blink) think about the nature of dominance, the place of your/a Dominant in your life, and about how your submissive nature interacts with those of a dominant nature. No, one ten minute session a day of kneeling while facing the image is not fulfilling the assignment. Kneel at two separate times each day. For each time, you may kneel and look at the image for more than five minutes, but not less than five minutes.
On the seventh day, after the last kneeling time for this assignment, you are to write down your thoughts about the image and about dominance. Write down any insights about dominance and/or yourself that you gained from kneeling and looking at the image. Write down how you feel about the assignment.
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Why would a submissive think about dominance? Well, my hope is that this assignment helps the submissive gain some perspective. Because part of understanding submission is understanding what dominance means to the submissive and how submission interacts with dominance. Consider also what role a Dominant and/or dominant others play(s) in submission and the choices a submissive makes. This assignment and the previous assignment should be paired up.
Requirements:
paper for writing
pen or pencil
some way of displaying a photo
optionally, a towel, blanket or yoga mat on which to kneel
First, you are to find a photo, a single image that seems to you to most closely portray the nature of submission. Try to find a one of good quality and size. (If you have a Dominant and are slightly more daring, have your Dominant choose an image for you. I suggest picking a few images and asking him to chose one.) Once you have a photo, write down why you chose it as an image that you believe portrays the nature of submission.
Then, for one week (seven days), twice each day you are to kneel facing the image and stare at the image for not less than five minutes at a time. As you stare at the image (yes, you are allowed to blink) think about the nature of submission and what you feel about submission. No, one ten minute session a day of kneeling while facing the image is not fulfilling the assignment. Kneel at two separate times each day. For each time, you may kneel and look at the image for more than five minutes, but not less than five minutes.
After the last kneeling time for this assignment, you are to write down your thoughts about submission and the image. Write down any insights about submission and/or yourself that you gained from kneeling and looking at the image. Write down how you feel about the assignment.
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When you comment after completing the assignment, please take a few moments to write your thoughts about the assignment. I do truly want your feedback.
As always, this assignment and all other sub assignments here may be started at any time. The time frame for any assignment starts when you choose to accept the assignment and leave a comment saying you have accepted it. And any assignment here may be repeated at any time.
The second part of this double assignment will be posted next week.
Requirements:
A small amount of time each day
Optionally, a towel or blanket or yoga mat on which to kneel
Every day for one week, after you wake up and before you go to bed (that is twice a day for those of you keeping track at home), you will kneel and repeat a small mantra three times.
Your kneeling position, unless otherwise instructed by your Dominant, will be to kneel with your knees shoulder width apart, your ass on your heels, your back straight, your hands palms up and resting on your thighs, and your eyes looking straight ahead.
The small mantra you will speak out loud three times will be this:
I am a submissive.
I serve with strength and grace.
I am a submissive.
This mantra will be repeated at least three times (feel free to repeat it more), two times a day, once after waking up and once before going to bed, every day for one week (seven consecutive days).
Submissives willing and able to do more should perform the assignment either naked or wearing the T-shirt/camisole from sub assignment number 3. Doing the assignment while facing a mirror is even better.
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This assignment should not take more than a few minutes of each day, and so should be relatively easy to do. Hopefully this will help the submissive to think about her actions through the day, and to improve the submissive’s confidence in being a good submissive.
What I said at the top of this post is not a tease. I will not create assignments if I have no reason to believe anyone is using them. But also, the comments are not just for my benefit. Of course I want to know submissives are using and getting benefit from the assignments. However, the real point in asking submissives to leave a comment when they start and when the complete an assignment is so that other submissives can see that these assignments are being done. And hopefully comments left by submissives about how the assignments affected them will encourage other submissives to try the assignments as well. In other words, O submissives, by commenting on the assignments, you help other submissives.
And of course previous assignments may be started at any time. The time frame for the assignment does not start from the date of my posting the assignment to the blog. The time frame for any assignment starts when you choose to accept the assignment and leave a comment saying you have accepted it. And any assignment can, and probably should, be repeated as often as you like. But the ground rules always apply
Okay, so the previous assignment for submissives is not popular. To use an odd metaphor, apparently the assignment was a bite bigger than most of you wanted to chew. So this assignment will be more modest. Indeed, it almost seems too easy. But we shall see.
First, the ground rules.
•Participation in these assignments is always voluntary.
•If you, O submissive reader, choose to accept an assignment, you are to indicate your acceptance by leaving a comment below saying that you have chosen to accept the assignment.
•When you complete the assignment, say so in the comments. And preferably within the time frame given for the assignment.
•If for some reason you are unable to complete an assignment that you accepted, leave a comment saying so.
•If you are a submissive currently serving a Dominant, and you desire to accept one of the assignments, you should first discuss the assignment with and get permission from your Dominant before accepting it.
Also, there is no judgement from me for non-completion of assignments. I am not your Dominant. The purpose of these assignments is not for me to be telling you what to do. The purpose is to help you, submissives, learn and grow as submissives.
And now, the assignment.
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Assignment 3
Requirements:
A white or pale color T-shirt or camisole
A black or dark color marker
On the T-shirt, use the marker to write across the chest of the shirt either “[your Dominant’s name]’s submissive” or “I am a strong and graceful submissive.” For one day, preferably a day when you are going to be out doing something (work, shopping, watching a movie, visiting a friend, those kinds of things), wear the T-shirt under your other outer garments. No, you do not have to show it to anyone (unless you want to). Just wear it under your other clothes. If you need to change clothes and/or shower, you may take the T-shirt off, but put it back on again to be under your outer garments. Wear it for a total of at least twelve hours, longer if possible.
UPDATE: I have been asked if a camisole is okay to use instead of a T-shirt. The answer is yes.
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What is the purpose of this assignment? The purpose is to remind the submissive that she is always a submissive. Underneath all the things we show other people, our true natures remain. When one goes out into the world, one’s true nature is present even if other people do not always recognize it.
Hopefully the submissive who accepts the assignment will think about that, and will be more aware of her actions. If a submissive who accepts the assignment has a Dominant, then hopefully the T-shirt will remind her to consider that her behavior out in the world reflects well or ill on her Dominant. Even if the submissive who accepts the assignment does not have a Dominant, hopefully she will r
Requirements: some time each day during a seven day period (and optionally a yoga mat if one is available and your Dominant allows its use)
This assignment will take place over a period of seven consecutive days. Choose one of the kneeling positions listed below and practice it for a total of at least thirty minutes a day for five days, for a total of at least forty-five minutes the sixth day, and a total of at least sixty minutes the seventh day. One need not practice the chosen position for the full amount of time all at once, but it must be practiced in segments of no less than ten minutes. Yes, that does mean that on the sixth day at least one kneeling period must be longer than ten minutes. Any kneeling period less than ten minutes does not count toward your total. Yes, that does mean that nine minutes and fifty-nine seconds or less does not count. No, you may not choose a different position if you decide after beginning the assignment that the position you chose is “too hard”. You may use a timer to keep track of your time while kneeling. You may, of course, spend more time each day kneeling than the assignment requires. Kneeling for a total of four hours and fifteen minutes (the total amount of kneeling time this assignment requires) in one or two days, however will not be a successful completion of the assignment. The assignment requires kneeling each day for seven consecutive days.
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I hope that is clear enough. No kneeling for brief periods of time like two minutes or five minutes. Ten minutes or more. This is should not be overly difficult, but it is not supposed to be too easy either.
For the first five days, you might try three periods of ten minutes, or two periods of fifteen minutes. Neither of which should be too difficult to accomplish. For the sixth day, you could do three periods of ten minutes and one period of fifteen minutes, or three periods of fifteen minutes. These are just examples. You can divide the time as suits your schedule. The only requirement for time is that each period of kneeling must last at least ten minutes.
What you wear while kneeling is up to you and/or your Dominant.
And now, the list of kneeling positions.
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Kneeling Position 1
• Knees together
• Back straight
• Arms behind your back
• Focus your gaze at a place on the floor about a foot in front your knees
Kneeling Position 2
• Knees as wide apart as you can manage and keep your balance
• Back straight
• Hands on your thighs, palms up
• Look straight ahead
Kneeling Position 3
• Knees shoulder width apart
• Back as straight as you keep it
• Head on the floor
• Hands behind your back
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Choose just one position to use for this assignment. I am feeling generous, so I will make one allowance regarding the positions. If there is
Requirements: paper and pen or pencil
Within 48 hours of the time you accept the assignment, you will write 100 times with a pen or pencil on actual paper the following sentences.
[Your Dominant’s Name] is my Dominant.
I am his [or her] submissive.
My goal is to serve [Your Dominant’s Name] to the best of my ability.
You do not have to write all 100 repetitions in one sitting. You may spread the writing out over the 48 hours as your schedule allows. You should, however, repeat the sentences at least three times when you do take the time to write.