After a really really rotten encounter with my ex-husband, I just wanted to set something straight.
I DID have an on going affair off and on for the last couple of years of my marriage. All those flirtations, propositions, and 'accidental' brushes by many many guys in the previous years and then be treated like crap by my hubby in comparison to all the other attention I was receiving finally got to me. And yes, he had been having an affair for longer than I had I found out later.
I'm sorry I hadn't confessed to this earlier..... just trying to seem like not such a slut I guess.... but I've had it, and I just wanted to get this out[user][/user]

...... when I first moved into the neighborhood with my exhusband....
Like I've written before, I was often hit on, propositioned, and flirted with by many of our neighbors (almost all were black, though a few were hispanic)
For the longest time, I was wondering what was up being called a mommy by a lot of the younger high school k**s and younger guys..... then I found out they meant 'mami' ohhhhh I thought!
As well, being called a Milf got past me until I started coming to websites like t his one when my marriage started to go south....
There was one hot, handsome black neighbor just ne Continue»

...... when I first moved into the neighborhood with my exhusband....
Like I've written before, I was often hit on, propositioned, and flirted with by many of our neighbors (almost all were black, though a few were hispanic)
For the longest time, I was wondering what was up being called a mommy by a lot of the younger high school k**s and younger guys..... then I found out they meant 'mami' ohhhhh I thought!
As well, being called a Milf got past me until I started coming to websites like t his one when my marriage started to go south....
There was one hot, handsome black neighbor just next door to our house that really really flirted with me..... in fact, he lived just across the street about half way down the block and often came over when I was outside picking up my newspaper (oh yes.... see the one about the construction workers :P Which also for sure meant he had been able to see what was underneath my nightshirt for the entire summer!)
Anyway, he had asked me if I played cards any, and I said yes, he told me that I should get like a tattoo of a queen of spades tattoo........... for good luck! As it was he gave me a necklace with a queen of spades thingie on it that I wore most of the time, as well as a tshirt that was about a size too small with a queen of spades logo on it.... So I pranced around the neighborhood for about three years wearing them!
Like I said....... totally naive huh?????
Good grief!

About three years ago, I lived in a house with my k**s and then husband. I was usually up before him and always went out to get the morning paper on our front stoop, or rather down onto the sidewalk leading to our house because that's where the paper ended up at.
Now, normally I slept nude and in the morning I'd just throw on a long white nightshirt to go out. I mean it covered everything down to mid thigh after all!
So I'd go out and would often stand and read the headlines before going in to dress.
There was a construction company that was building a house on our side of the block just Continue»

We've had some really windy days lately around here..... up to 40 mph sometimes more!
So, being me, and having a blonde moment, decided to wear a skirt to work yesterday.... and when the time came to put on my panties, discovered I hadn't put the load of clothes with almost all of them in the dryer from the might before.
Except for a couple of gstrings and a holey pair of boyshorts, that is.
So, in a moment of blondeness, I went with a the gstring, thinking it would be ok..... after all, what could happen?
So, when I went out without checking the weather, trying to balance a couple of folders for work, my laptop case, and purse, the wind hit me, blowing straight up my flipping skirt, catching my folders blowing them all over,.... so I had to try and hold down my skirt, which really didn't work very well, and bending over trying to stop my papers from disappearing, I made a fuck of a sight for some high school boys walking behind me....
I think I'm pretty much the highlight of about half a dozen cell fucking phone pictures.....
Damn technology!
Damn wind!!!!!!

Now that I've started to 'loosen' up a little sexually.... as in HAVING SOME!
Besides the delicious, luscious feeling of knowing that I'm a fully sexual woman again.... on my own terms, and to be the object of desire of some men..
Is that when I'm just with the guy I happen to have had sex with, when he might slide his hand over my ass...... run his hand up my shirt wherever we happen to be that is at least semi-private ...... knowing that hey THIS IS OK>..... That nothings wrong with it that its even erotic, knowing the partner I'm with is 'claiming' me as his at that time.. at that place.. even as I have the freedom to walk away if I choose.... but I'm not choosing to do so.
To lean in to a man's hand squeezing my breast.... or bending over in front of him....
Just.... in a way these things might be better than sex....
Ok.. ok..... maybe....
Sex IS better :)

You know, I've never been attracted to any guy of a certain age or ethnic group or whatever. Of course, I'm just coming off an 18 year marriage (done for just about a year now) so I never went looking.
Despite that, I had been propositioned constantly by a couple of neighbor boys starting for gods sake about three years ago now.... just k**ding around I had been sure.... We live in a predominantly African-American neighborhood so there wasn't anything different about it....
Both are 19 now and for the past couple weeks have come along with me on my daily run through the neighborhood and the neighboring park.
My question is..... is this wierd? I mean, that I've started to let them 'hang out' with me like this? Despite the fact that they've often just came out and asked me to 'be with them'? And I've always shrugged it off?
Now, with the temperatures in the mid 90's both young men run shirtless.... and I've just been wearing a jogging bra because of the heat, I'm wondering if I'm playing a bit with fire here...... its a sexy/erotic thought....
Just something I can't seem to shake at the moment?
Any comments would be welcome!