I am such a slut......13
I am such a slut......13
Please read my other blogs to catch up. They are true, part confession, part cathartic. I love your comments. ~Dani
Day by day I am becoming more feminine. I can now notice the changes when I look at myself in the mirror. A big step was getting my hair professionally done. Yes, it was a bit embarassing going into the salon, but the ladies treated me so nice, laughing and sharing stories, some telling me that they would like to fix me up with their husbands. But properly cut and colored and styled, it made me look so very feminine. And while I was there I had my fingernails done as well. A wonderful manicure with new nails, light pink. But an even bigger step was my beginning to take hormones. I could see my body softening in certain places, becoming more curvy. My breasts were becoming slightly bigger, fuller, and my nipples more sensitive, though I knew in my mind that at some point I would most likely be getting breast implants. And I loved my body hairless and tan. How good it felt to run my hands over myself. How good it felt to apply lotion, to breathe in the scent. And my perfume as well. Well actually, if honest, how good it felt to put on my makeup and my jewelry and my perfume....a wonderful collection that i now had along with my lingerie and clothing. I was spending most of my money, well, just about all of my money on becoming a woman, between the clothing and cosmetics and the things to accentuate my femininity, and having some left over for some fairy dust to ingest to make me appreciate the woman that I was.
I had one desire that I had yet not realized. I had fantasized about it since the beginning of this journey, since I first began going to adult book stores and making myself available to whatever man might be there. A fantasy since I sucked my first cock and then allowed him to put it in my asspussy and even come in me. I wanted a black man. And not just any black man, but a really big black man, both in stature and the size of his cock. I wanted him to tower over me, to control me, to own me. To make me his slut, his whore. I wanted to kiss him and nuzzle with him, to suck his cock, to lick his balls and put m tongue in his ass if he wanted that....and then to feel his cock inside of my hungry hole, completely buried in me.....and to feel him shoot his load in me and feel the warmth of his cum as it filled my asspussy. I wanted to taste his cock as he pulled it back out. I wanted to submit to him completely, to be his submissive little girl. To be his slut, his complete slut. God knows that I have been trying to arrange this to happen. Going to book stores looking. Being on the internet, But continually frustrated at missed appointments and meetings and just not finding that man that I wanted, that big strong hung black male.
I was with Derek, the man who's whore I was becoming. We were in an empty house of someone who he knew. I dont know what the connection was but no one was living there. I was wearing a black onepiece dress that just barely covered my ass and really didint when I bent over or kneeled. My tanned legs were bare and on my feet I had a pair of black pumps. My lips were a soft pink as were my nails. A silver necklace around my neck with silver small hoop earrings and some silver bangle bracelets. Of course I was a bit high :) He was standing above as I knelt on the floor in front of him licking and sucking his cock. It tasted so good. I loved his cock, I adored his cock, I love how he made me feel. And of course he was filming me. "Dani, you really like doing this dont you?" he said to me and I looked up at him and taking his cock from my mouth answered "Yes, Derek I love sucking your cock." He smiled at me and said "Tell me about it. what do you like?" all the while continuing to film me. "Well, I like being a woman," I immediately replied. "And I like feeling so sexy and I like how your cock feels as it gets hard and I love how it tastes. I just love how good it tastes and smells as I suck on it....and I love how you respond to my touch, how hard you get when I stroke you and suck you. I feel like such a woman when you use me and when you call me your slut and your whore. I really do." Derek smiled again and let out a moan as I buried his cock all the way in my mouth and touched my nose against his abdomen. "You like getting high and getting fucked too, dont you my little whore. You like to feel my cock in you, or any cock, dont you you slut." and I hungrily sucked his cock as he continued to tell me what a whore I was occassionally removing his cock from my mouth to look at him and moan Yes. "You are such a whore and we have had such fun havent we?" "Yes, Derek, I love being your whore and I would do anything for you."
And then it happened. Derek said to me "Dani, do you have any fantasies that you have not fulfilled, anything that you want to do?" As I sucked him my mind raced immediately to the one that I had been keeping, the one that I had been so desiring to make come true. "Yes Derek, I do. I do have one that I would love to do." "And that is?" he inquired. "Derek, I want to be with a black man Derek and not just a black man but a big strong well hung black man who will make me his whore, who will use me an fuck me and, and fill me with his seed. Oh, that is so what I want." I confessed to Derek and the camera. And it was true. That was what I wanted. "Derek smiled back at me. "You whore. So you want to be used by a big black man, is that it? You want to see yourself sucking a big black cock and getting fucked by a big black dick to you? Okay Baby, let's make that happen."