These are thoughts that I've had over a period of time.
They are in no way sexual or erotic so if that's what you are seeking,,go elsewhere.
They were; I feel,a cry for help,,,help which never came, despite having visited several psychiatrists.
Why am I so bl**dy angry.
Anything seems to set me off, the mad driver, the idiot parked in front of my drive so I can't get out, the c***d breaking the branch off a tree.
You'd think at my age, having been there seen it, done it and have the tee shirt I'd have calmed down, but no it just gets worse.
I know there's a particular word for someone who dislikes people but I can't remember it, and that too makes me angry.
If you didn't laugh you'd cry.
Don't mock, it's not funny or pathetic or sad, it's f****** real and it hurts and causes such deep deep depressions and no one cares and I just want to sit and cry and curl up into a ball and sl**p it away and I can't, because I have this and that to do and responsibilities to face, and there's no one to talk to that understands.
I've seen the doctors, the shrinks, the councillors, the samaritans and agony aunts. They all just look at me and say Buck Up pull yourself together and get on with it, or it'll be alright, give it time.
Well I've certainly had plenty of time, how much more only The Gods know but if only the good die young I'll still be here suffering for a long time yet.