mixedasfuk's Blog
"My Reality"

Not for the closed-minded or the faint of heart.

I look into the mirror and i see..

The body of which i'm in, nothing more than a carrier, a vessel, like an organic robot made from skin, and bone and bl**d. Within the brain i exist, a consciousness twenty-seven years in the making and changing everyday.

I'm more different today than i was last year and compared to ten years ago i'm a completely different person.

With that information i understand that nobody is born with a soul, a soul is self-consciousness, a soul is personality and personality is experience. Experience takes years to develop into personality.

What you see before you is a physical rendition of how my soul appears. My physical appearance alone doesn't tell enough of what makes me who i am though, only time can reveal me.

And in a brutal world full of organized religions, fads, and all around general control of consciousness and reality it seems that people are losing their sense of self. Instead of "you" making "yourself" who you are its more like "they" f***e you to believe or become something you aren't.

They attack us all day and every day.

You're always too fat..
Always too poor..
Never pretty enough...
Don't have enough extravagant shit..
You're not a good enough of a person...

You're never good enough..

A war that is waged against ourselves for a lifetime and it's pure brilliance.. if you want to control something then the best thing to do is bring it to battle with itself for your own benefit.

Nothing is true and as ridiculous as it sounds their is no such thing as standard morals.

Morals are personal and they range from person-to-person.
Evil only exists in those who do what other people don't like, but it doesn't mean that what they're doing is evil.

A man doing what most would consider "evil" could find a million others who don't believe what he's doing is bad and can give you logical reasoning behind why they think so.. on the other hand a person doing something good may be frowned upon by others who can give credible reasons behind why it's bad.

Its relativity. That's life..

Their is only what is. People do what they do because they are people. Not because they are driven to by any power outside life itself.

God.. whatever it may be.
Don't attempt to tell me about God because if their is such a thing then we, as people couldn't even be able to begin to conceive the idea of what it is.

Something with so much power that lives outside the universe and existed before anything else ever did.. Don't give me that "Gods a man bullshit either"

Motherfuckers you k**ding me!?

Giving something like God human traits.. its like a speckle of shit on the back of a toilet seat giving itself human traits, if it could, but a speckle of shit couldn't even conceive the idea of being human.

Something so immense doesn't give a shit about gay sex, it doesn't give a shit about killing, or **** or genocide. For something like that to care, it would have to experience it as a human being and see it the same way we do. I highly doubt a human created the universe and everything on it. But fuck, i could be wrong.

If God exists and could show the traits of a human being and understood morals then it wouldn't let it's existence be known to human beings. To create something just to make it worship you seems... Petty, and ungod like.

Don't give me promises of Heaven and don't threaten me with Hell. I won't fear or aspire for any of them until i can find them on Google Earth.

Until our deaths i believe we should live within our morals and allow us to deal with the consequences of our actions under our own terms. So long as we understand that, then we will have the will and the power to protect our selves.

We won't have to sacrifice ourselves to governments who take advantage of and exploit our fears of harm by policing us and telling us how to live. Living under laws, most of which are unnecessary.
Working, trading our precious time here on earth, most of us laboring for bullshit pay, making barely enough to last until next payday. While the owners of these companies, corporations chill in the back of their jets, stuffing their fat fucking faces, knowing that it's us making them rich but not giving one squirt of piss..

We live in systems that try to convince us that we're free.. Nut it's bullshit.

In this system, the amount of money you have depends on how much freedom you're granted.

Get caught d***k driving as an every-day jerkoff and you're life is fucked.
Get caught doing the same thing as a rich person, all you have to do is toss some green around and you're stuck with a slap on the wrist, if that.

People step on each other, don't give two-shits about one-another. They preach God and worship money. We ignore real crimes of humanity like what's going on in A lot of African countries. We are supposed to be the ones controlling our governments and yet we have no say in what they do.. We're all just after the next hundred bucks, fuck everyone and everything else.

Don't fool me with religion, don't tell me whats cool, or give me a standard for beauty, don't tell me what's good or bad, right or wrong.. and don't fucking try to tell me that i'm free.

It's a world of lies and illusions that we live in..
And until you can understand that, you will be stuck inside your pre-created reality.

So until people wake up and open their eyes and grow some Goddamn, motherfucking balls... I say..

...Fuck the world.

Posted by mixedasfuk 2 years ago
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1 year ago
well spoken
1 year ago
When I Woke Up !

When I finally woke up I took a look around. I saw city halls, courthouses, houses of government, churches, schools, and universities by the hundreds and thousands. I saw systems systems for managing the land, the air, and the water; systems for managing human behavior; systems for managing religion; systems for managing learning; systems for managing food, shelter, clothing; systems for managing love and procreation: a vast complex of carefully engineered systems. I saw millions of people working, not for themselves, but for someone else. I saw millions of people doing, not what they themselves want to do, but what someone else wants them to do. I saw the depressing evidence of a people who have externalized and institu- tionalized-in fact, have tried to standardize-the very nature of humanity. I saw a whole people whove lost the way of life and in its place have built a technological monster which does most of their hard work, carries their water, delivers their food, raises their kids, makes their decisions, says their prayers, transports them, informs them, entertains them, and controls the people it serves, absolutely. I also saw that the monster, seemingly unable to manage itself, was running wild, totally out of visible control, ripping the land to pieces, spreading poisons, filling the air with filth, dumping garbage and shit in the rivers and lakes and oceans. I saw all that, and I saw the people, millions of them, crowded together in cities, living side by side in towns, villages, rural areas. But I didnt see a single community. Is someone doing all of this on purpose ?


Many people have pointed to the SYMPTOMS of the mess we're in since time immemorial. The net effect is to waste theirs and other peoples lifetimes.

The people are not taught reality in church, in school, in the media, in courts, in politics, in business, or in secret societies.

Until people who insult persons they have never met, or spoken with, and do not know, agree to do research into the true
origins of Freemasonry beyond the surface stuff, then it is as senseless to waste time with them as it would be to debate with drunks in taverns or the brain-dead in mental institutions.

Some people just don't want to know ultimate reality; either because they themselves are part of the problem, or more often, because knowing brings with it a certain amount of responsibility which they do not care to share.
2 years ago
Intense self focus, and a firm statement of individuality.
Truly self aware good man
2 years ago
Excellent treatise!
The Matrix (of a sorts) exists. It's only when one is aware of this fact can one begin to create one's own reality! "Esse est percipi" - Berkeley
2 years ago
Some real truth in here - great blog.
Agree with cigardad4dad's comment too. Though we aren't made equal, that's just a falsehood usually tied to religion - to believe we deserve to be treated as such is a separate issue though.
2 years ago
very deep...well written thnx
2 years ago
Is a difficult matter and I don't know
english to discuss in a right way.
Just I believe you don't need to fuck the wirld
but tom fuck "systems", for example "god".
The problem is sentients need "systems", "laws"
not out of their bodies and brains but into
theirselves, is called "the religious sense",
isn't a real religion, is just the reason because
an high percentage of us don't need to kill the
others and applies freedom without destroys the freedom of the others.
Call it respect, respect for ourselves
before than for the others.
Even the anarchy has rules, rules I respect.
Leadership systems respect just the rule of
surviving, not living, just surviving.
This is what a lot of people is trying to change on this planet but it cost a lot to all of us,
just I'm glad to pay this cost, because :
"I have a dream..."

to pay this cost
2 years ago
Very good words, saved it in my faves
2 years ago
Damn right! You get to the bottom of everything and it is the muthafuckahs who want to judge that strip us of our rights and pleasure.

But that being said, I have to confess to my own mortal limits. I just can't stand anything that's against anybody's will. Just like I can't stand RESTRICTING anybody from what IS in their will.

So fuck me. I don't like rape. Child molesting is the same thing no matter how you slice it. You wanna fuck your relatives- have at it. Just make sure they're legal. Me? Not so into it. Probably because they're all dead and were ugly in the first place!

And oh yeah- never put that much store in beauty. The key to a good fuck is in your partner's masculinity or feminity, depending on what you are looking for. EVEN IF IT'S BOTH AT THE SAME TIME!

We're all made equal, that's for sure... even if we don't like the same things. Or like different things at different times.

If your point is "just get used to it", I am all on board!

Thanks for giving these thoughts, and thanks to my buddy FTW88 for alerting me!

2 years ago
One word: Brilliant.

Very well done.
2 years ago
if i was smart i would of written this shit myself. we look at reality very much tha same.
2 years ago
holy fuck bro! this is some serious fuckin knowledge. i have looked at tha world around me in tha same way since i can remember. i think everyone should take a timeout from jerking off and read this shit. im gonna pass this around to a few of my friends. i couldnt agree more with every word in this blog post. ya got some serious talent and ur very well spoken my brother. much respect!