i'm thinking of taking a drastic, highly longed for, and extremely nerve wracking step. let me explain...
So it's been a rough past couple of months. my house was flooded about two months ago. i had to move and lost tons of my possessions and more important, tons of my clothes.
I'm finally in a new apartment, and it was more affordable that i had anticipated, which is good for a few reasons. I had enough left over to buy two of the items in my "outfits i must get ASAP" pics. so happy and excited about them. I got the black mini bustier and matching panty, and the black, gray and white babydoll dress (spring is here!).
the money that i had set aside for a security deposit i am thinking about using to get myself a shemale e****t. someone that i can relate to, who's gorgeous, will soften the situation by talking about outfits, lingerie, etc. and who will then take control of the situation and train me to suck her beautiful cock.
i'm so submissive, that i think that this may be the only way that can summon the courage to suck my first real dick. i know that when i've done that, i'll find it a lot easier to meet people and will feel far more confident in finding a dominant person to hopefully spend some time with and explore some of my mpre erotic and exciting fantasies.
i need to know if you think this is a good idea, and if anyone has any tips. keep in mind that i'm VERY shy.
OOOh, and i can wear my near sexy dress and lingerie. yummy!
Let me know what you think.