I never thought I would tell this story. I was so ashamed of this incident for years. I didn't want to believe how pleasurable, naughty and sinful it was and I longed for more for I thought of myself as fully heterosexual. This should certainly repulse me but, I found myself fantasizing about it till this day. I had had thought about females with females. Most men do like watching two lesbians make out and fantasize about joinig in with them. When I was in my teens and very horny, the girls I knew were rather conservative (it was the late 70's in a industrial area, which seemed to be more conservative and birth control wasn't widely accepted). The slutty girls seemed to prefer atheletes, older, guys with cars or money. This didn't leave me many options since I was none of the above. Magazines like Hustler and Playboy and OUI provided some much needed visual stimulation although I didn't masterbate until a female friend of mine gave me a hand job in the gym/auditorium during study hall but, that is another story. I felt a little jealous that women could get each other off thus needing guys even less. Plus, guys would be shunned if they tried to relieve each other. Perhaps this is were it all started for this experience. I can say that I wasn't attracted to men in general although the thought of two men help relieve each other did cross my mind for it was only fair play.
I was 18 years old and on Thanksgiving break from college. I had not dated or even socialized beyond study groups. I had not been in contact with any of my high school female friends either. I was visiting one of my old highschool friend and next door neighbor. We had gone to different colleges and had not seen each other for 3 months. We were quite close and would share our thoughts on all subjects including sex. We usually would talk about the girls we found attractive. We had different taste in women except for a neighbor girl whose b*****rs were our friends also.
Along with this we hid a few XXX magazines in his parents basement. We had just got a kinky one and were discussing what turned us on the most. I confessed that I would like to be submissive type which would be tied, spanked and humiliated by a dom. He looked a little confused at first but then I could see his eyes light up with thoughts about it.
We had the TV on and I was looking at him and the set so I couldn't see everything but, I swear I had felt himself several times. As we talked some more I was getting more and more excited at the thought of being tied, spanked and humiliated for the magazine had a slutty women spanking a tied man (I think it was Ron Jeremey). I was jealous that he had his balls tied and she was spanking them while his hands were cuffed behind him. It was getting me hornier and hornier. He also had a much bigger cock than me which humbled me. I thought only well hung men could attract women like her. My friend agreed with me.
Also, there were two women spanking each other which was a major turn on for me. We did discuss that it seemed unfair that women could get off on each other with out a man's touch and it turned on most men including us. It seemed like we had to suffer with our sexual fustration when they could turn to each other for satisfaction.
Then the obvious question but taboo question came up, would one of us ever consider being pleasured or pleasuring a guy? I can't remember who brought it up but, I think it was me for I always felt it unfair for that double standard. I took a deep breath and said shakily, if I was d***k enough or horny enough for I didn't drink and he new it. I patiently waited for his approval or disapproval or at least his thoughts. It was agonizing. He could start to laugh and mock me or even tell the rest of our local friends which would at the very least making a laughing stock of me and would probably get back to my f****y. Finally, I asked him the same question with great anxiety. He hesitated and mumbled maybe if he was d***k enough and again, I swear he felt himself. I felt a little unsure of the implications of my feelings being revealed to the world.
We continued to watch TV while lounging in uneasy silence. He didn't laugh at me, I thought or mock me but, he didn't really share what he though either. As I watched TV, I thought back to the day before when he actually was teaching me how to drive a stick shift with his car. He was very patient and afterward we went to the local adult bookstore to pick up the magazine we had been looking at. While he was coaching me on shifting he would occasionally stop and say, how are you going to thank me for the lessons? I would just laugh and say Well work it off somehow. To which he would we'll see how you'll pay as he lightly slapped my thigh. We would wrestle as k**s alot so, I didn't think much of the slap on the thigh but, it did cause my cock to stir a bit but I ignored it. I didn't think of what he might mean but, I figured I would owe him a favor to be named and collected at a later time when I could help him. The look in his eye was a little mischievious though but, I didn't read into it much for I was concentrating on not stripping his clutch.
All this started to dawn on me, maybe he wanted something other than a favor, but we had just been talking about girls and whom we desired. This did have me confused in silence which seemed like an eternity. It was a very anxious silence. Finally I figured I would test what he might want as payment for the driving lessons with a suggestive statement about how horny the magazine had made me. I figured depending on his response I would have my answer to his question. I picked up the magazine and began flipping through it for a few minutes and then said, I am so horny looking at this domme spank his cock I could whip out my cock and jerk off right in front of the TV as I began to rub myself through my jeans. Then came the silence again which seemed like for ever. Then I quickly added that his mom might walk in on me and then tell my mother not to mention the embarassment and his father would never allow me in the house again. He would be lectured and embarassed by his mom and dad while questioning his sexuality.
Then very quickly he said that he could lock the door if I would like. Now, I had my answer so, I pushed a little and said it won't be quite the same as having the domme spanking me but, I'd have to make due. Then he said it would be cool to have a women handcuffing and spanking my balls but, I'd have to make due with the magazine and added go ahead stroke yourself.
I slowly worked down my jeans and underwear and began slowly stroking my soft but hardening cock. Again, out the corner of my eye, I thought he was grabbing himself through his jeans. I was still very anxious and could not maintain a good erection. Many thought were running through my head. Was I gay for stroking myself with my male friend watching? Did he like watching? Would he start jerking off also? Plus, I was hoping that he might spank my cock while my hands were tied. This frightened me the most because it seemed the most gay. I slid my jeans down to my knees and started fantasizing about the domme in the magazine but also about how my friend was watching and would he start jerking also?
I was really starting to get hard and wanted to find out what my friend might be thinking about so, I blirted out I'm getting close to cumming in very labored breathing way. He hesitated, but then I muttered in a labored breath, that his mom might get suspiciuos if there was cum on the couch or floor that maybe I should take it in to the bathroom to finish myself off. I did notice his eyes were focused on my cock. I slowing raised from the couch for I was lying on the couch and with my pants around my knees and an erection it was akward going. My friend did slap my ass as he opend the door out of the room and into the bathroom. I made my way in front of the toilet and continued my stroking for the walk had left me a little soft. He sat on the tub focused on my cock for a few minutes while sqeezing his cock through his jeans. I was having a little trouble getting hard while standing for I usually was in a prone position to masterbate. Although I had mixed feelings on my friend stroking while watching me stroke my naked cock and balls (my jeans were still around my knees and slowly sliding down to my ankles). I was also hoping he might help out by spanking me. Finally, he said could I use some help to cum faster and I couldn't verbalize anything but, just shook my head yes. and before I could think anything else he was behing me giving me a wrap around and it was delightful although I was feeling very guilty about liking the touch of my male friend for I always thought the only kind of sex was between a man and women after they were married so, I was having trouble getting really hard let alone cumming. He noticed I wasn't getting really hard and asked if he was doing something wrong or maybe that I didn't like his touch and said I really liked his touch but felt a little confused. He asked if I felt gay with him stroking me and I said a little and would have preferred a woman touching me and said the neighbor girl we both liked. Then, he asked should he stop to which I said no. It felt to good. Immediately he asked how about if he try something else and before I could respond, he got on his knees in front of me and began kissing my cock and balls. It was very delightful. After a few minutes he asked me if I liked it between licks to which I said yes with very labored breathing. I still couldn't get very hard despite how pleasurable it felt. Guilt feeling and the question of was I gay which expounded by the fact that I had had only one sexual experience like that with a girl. I figured maybe I should have a girl friend but, my classes generally had mostly guys and meeting girls was difficult because of the time envolved studying and no money to date. These types of thoughts were racing through my mind which kept me from getting hard and cumming even with his delightful warm moist mouth and and tongue licking the under side of my sensitive cock and feeling my ass cheeks with his hands and occasionally stroking my balls. Finally throuhg his suprisingly skillfull mouth and tongue and was about ready to cum even though my cock was still on the soft side. I could barely say "I'm going to cum" to which he mumbled ok for his mouth had my cock in and he was going to swallow my load then I came with a grunt. My knees almost buckled with the orgasm for it felt wonderful even though my cock was rather soft.
My friend said is that it? Meaning that was only a little bit of cum and I said yes. I didn't know it at the time but my cock and balls are below average size and I was feeling scared and guilty about having a homosexual experience.
I did feel guilty because I didn't reciprocate for my friend for he was obviously very horny and had just swallowed my load. He must have felt a little disappointed and fustrated to say the least.
I couldn't look him in the eye as he asked if I liked it? I couldn't answer him directly but, did say I felt very guilty. He asked me if I felt confused to which I said no just scared and guiltly. He must have felt used and humiliated for he was just on his knees giving me one of the best blow jobs I've ever had at that point and up till now. He asked me if I would like to shower up but, I said is was very late and should go (it was about 3:30AM) because my mom might begin to worry but, it was mostly because I felt very ashamed of what just happened. He should have stopped before I came and made me suck his cock first for I'm very submissive but, we didn't understand that yet.
As I pulled up my undies and jeans and walked to the door, he asked "are you ok with me?", I said yes and quickly ask if he still kiked girls to which he said yes and I smiled at him but could not look directly in his eyes and left after saying bye. He asked if I would stop by tomorrow and I said yes of course but, I still felt very guilty. I did feel very bad about not reciprocating for he seemed very horny. I'm just glad he wasn't mad at me for he had to feel a little used and very horny.
More to come......
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