Hi,i have sent this message already to several of my girlfriends on here,and they have told me honestly what they feel. I have also asked my closest girlfriend on this site,Barbara (http://xhamster.com/user/barbara1980),and she completely understands and is not surprised at all. She was doubtful of my business venture from the start and regularly teases me about how dumb i can be. I have therefore decided to post this as a blog to explain to everyone who comes across my profile and is curious about me.

I am having to step back a little from the activities here,i cannot keep up with the pace like Hannah does,she has been in the lesbian e****t business since we were at college together and it is her life. I know to some,sex all the time with different girls sounds wonderful and exciting but it is not really practical to sustain over a long period in real life,especially for someone like me who has been used to the stability of a marriage,all be it for less than 4 years.

I hope that most of you will understand what i am saying. I need to devote more time to Emma as the business has overtaken our relationship somewhat. It may be that i have to stop completely and leave it all to Hannah – financially,i am comfortable..i do not need to work – Paul settled with me very comfortably when we separated and i have investments etc which are quite attractive despite the downturn in the economy. But at the outset,and after Hannah had persuaded me,i could not resist the temptation and things have been very exciting indeed as you will have seen in my stories.

Do not misunderstand,i love sex and have so many friends,but the business side has spoiled things. I still find it strange to take up to £500 off a girl just for treating her to several hours of my company. I need to get back to how i lived before and take it from me,that does not mean i lose contact with all of my so called clients,who have become dear friends – i can now relax and choose as i wish as long as Emma always is in agreement.

I would be interested in what people think and if they want me to stay on xHamster or give it a break for a while. Love from Shirl. xxxxxxxx.

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