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Just another Bio .......

PLEASE write your Comments/ Messages in ENGLISH !


My original "Bio" is under my Blog/notes.

*** YIKES!!! .... I WROTE way TOO MUCH !! ... **************


I have not participated in any D/s play for almost a year

The end of this November Marks the Anniversary.

In Short,


I was in one of my "moods" and sadly when one lives 1400km's away there is little time for making up. I miss him but I fucked up!!! I would not let him in to one of many webs I often weave.

He was kind enough to drive me to the airport when it was time for me to leave. He graciously accepted my kiss good-bye, I once again apologized for my behavior..... He drove away and I boarded my flight.

Do I miss him........ YES....... I willingly gave him my mind, my body to use and play with as he pleased.

My last visit I was not so open.....(I know I am impossible to be around when I am in "that" place that is my own ).....

I was his Sub/slave, He was my Dom when we first met. Naturally, as time progressed we also became friends...........Now we barely speak..... What was once a wonderful friendship only now dangles from a thread.

This is my cross/pain to bare, after all I am a masochist.

I miss how he use to humiliate me. I miss how he made me fidget, beg and weep so I wouldn't have to do what
he demanded of me......Deep down we both knew I WANTED to do it all!!

I miss our first encounter. I was taught quickly that he was in TOTAL CONTROL and I was to be COMPLETELY Submissive to him..... I was his "FUCK TOY" to be used whenever and however he wanted....

I tried to test him, to see if he would let me get away with being a Spoiled BRAT (I can't help this)........To my great surprise, I was rewarded with a level of degradation that even surprised me.... I knew from that moment on, he could do as he pleased with me.

Today,

My reality is one of monotony (some friend's may disagree) but sexually speaking, you can not "train" a lover to be a Dom, it is unnatural ......

-Life is HILARIOUS .... I am living in a "relationship" which borders on celibacy.... (I almost want to burst out laughing at the irony of this) ....For as unnatural it is for someone to be a Dom, it is equally, if not more unnatural, for me to not to have or CRAVE Sex.

PLEASE NOTE,

-I am NOT looking for a New Master or Dom so please don't write to tell me you ARE the ONE!


-I was near collared a couple of years ago (I told him I would NEVER love him, he insisted I would fall in love with him...This PISSED me off!!) I therefore started to Emasculate his behavior to test his Dominance. He FAILED and this turned me completely OFF! (This does not mean I am incapable of Love, I was incapable of loving him))


I do NOT WANT a new Dom

PLEASE SEE ABOVE.......

-I had a Dom come in to my life, I became his sub, his fuck toy, his friend his anything and everything and I loved him..... I FUCKED it UP!!!... I do not want to feel that anguish again.

I still care for this person very much. I still dream of how it felt when his one hand was wrapped around my throat, choking me.... I still get excited thinking of the words he use to use to verbally degrade me with. He would then demand me to repeat them to him as I pleaded with him not too..... I still long to feel his other hand roam over my body and claims what was his...... but this is now only a dream....

I am NOT,
wanting anyone to comment or tell me I can do better or you could satisfy me..... No ONE can!!!! ....

-Happiness can only come from with in thy self.


Still one of my Favorite quotes:


Behold, my love, behold all that I simultaneously do: scandal, seduction, bad example,(ib), adultery, sodomy! Oh, Satan! one and unique God.... of my soul, inspire thou in me something yet more, present further perversions to my smoking heart, and then shalt thou see how I shall plunge myself into them all!
~Marquis De Sade~

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-I am no longer accepting friend requests.

-If you would like to leave a comment on my page or photo's please feel free. (Thank you Petdyke for your advice and friendship xoxox)

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Some things remain the same:

****I do NOT like watching or participating in Male Domination. PLEASE stop sending me photos of having shit inserted in your DICK it makes me ILL!!! .... If you want to be verbally humiliated then PAY me and I will DEGRADE you something HORRIBLE *****

-I am a Spoiled BRAT!

-I enjoy the finer things in life but I am happiest when I am on my own, backpacking and living in hostels.

-Simplicity is Sweet.

-I Love Life and enjoying all that cums with it! I Dislike people who are conceited and think of themself as better than others (they are usually the most insecure) .... Life is TOOO Short for such pettiness! ...

-People should be more open about their sexuality...

-I Love the German Language (one of many fetishes)

-I love travelling and want to live in Europe..

- I have Dual Citizenship but I currently do NOT live in Europe and I do NOT speak Polish... Still learning.

-YES, I know I have my Country of Origin listed as Poland.

-I do NOT Webcam!

-I do NOT SKYPE!


FOR REAL ...........

***I do NOT respond to messages "Ohhh baby, Ohhh baby, want fuck, I need body bad....I make cum for you.... you like me cock, ohhh sooooo hard for only you!!!! (...bad grammar used on purpose) ..... Are you people for REAL? Seriously who responds to that shit?!?!? ... Please see my earlier wall posts for an ACTUAL EXAMPLE! LMAO *****


**If English is not your first language I am not offended by spelling mistakes.** :-)

-I do NOT always have time to reply to my messages but I try the best I can.

*** I have Hammy on my Handy and often it shows that I am on line when I am NOT, Don't think I'm ignoring you (Okay, maybe I am hahahahhaha) *****

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Posted by PetiteMorte 2 years ago
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7 months ago
I am not ashamed to say that your words brought tears to my eyes. (Fuck, maybe I should write this in german. Aber weil noch viele andere mitlesen, bleibe ich bei englisch. Sollten wir direkt in kontakt treten, ändere ich das... vielleicht) I experienced something almost totally different yet remarkably similar ... from a doms point of view (makes no sense to those who have not experienced it). Sigh.
2 years ago
You are such a cutie. *dreamingofyou*
2 years ago
Smart that you saved this as a blog
for those really interested in you.

Thank you for mentioning me, Petite Morte

***** Peter Pan, aka porn poet Pete