I'm a pathetic, impotent loser and a fat faggot sissy!
I’m 54 years old, my height is 5’9” (175 cm) and my weight is 254 lb (115 kg). I was born at October 15, 1957 and I live in 12043 Berlin-Neukölln (Germany). I’m divorced, my marital status is single and I’m living alone. I’m male, but I’m not really a man, I’m a very submissive, ridiculous, fat sissy for many years. I’m impotent since 2010 and I’m only able to ejaculate a small amount of sperm once or twice a month while I’m stimulating my prostate.
To expose myself as a complete failure and a pathetic sissy I always wear an effeminate outfit, which is consisting of bra, girdles and panties, garter belt and stockings. But I’m not a crossdresser, transvestite and transgender in the true sense. It is not my intention to imitate women or to act out a feminine side. Women are enchanting goddesses, which I adore.
I was not always like a fat, disgusting guy, as I am today. Until I was 40 Year I was slim and athletic, then I got fat. Today I weigh about 254 lb (115 kg), sometimes more, sometimes less. In the past, until the end of 1990, I looked and acted like a normal guy and I've always had girlfriends and sex with women.
But the relationships to my girlfriends never lasted longer than four years. I've always been a sexual loser, even my first girlfriend cheated on me. I didn't understand this fact for a long time, until my sweet girlfriend told me in 1990 that I'm unable to satisfy a woman sexually. I've always been addicted to masturbation, before I became impotent I masturbated once or twice daily. Now I milk my sperm once or twice a month by stimulating my prostate.
On the images above you can see my ex-girlfriends Silvia, Bärbel, Dagmar and Ilona*. These are the women I really loved and which are most important in my life until today. On the picture below you can see a statistic that describes my sex life with women.
To live a deviant lifestyle in my little pink world is a decision that results from the fact, that I’m a lifelong sexual failure. My whole life I was only able to get poor erections and premature ejaculations and every time I ejaculated my sperm after a few seconds in the woman’s vagina at each intercourse. I never was able to satisfy a woman and I was always a cuckold since I had first sex with a woman, I never was a real man.
In August 1990 I had the last regular sexual intercourse with a woman. Since 1990 I had only five times sex with a woman, it was in October 2000 with my last girlfriend. In the year 2006 I had my last chance to have sexual intercourse with a woman. I was sweating like a fat pig and I groped whimpering her beautiful breasts with my fat, sweaty fingers. I vainly tried to penetrate her vagina with my ridiculous penis, but I couldn’t. After a few seconds I ejaculated my disgusting sperm between her thighs.
After so many years without sex with a woman I became not only a disgusting loser, but also a perverted voyeur, who stares lustful at the wonderful bust and the sweet bum of every young woman. But I’m only allowed to dream about sex with woman. My lifestyle as a pansy sissy is a deviant way of saying, that I adore women and that I submit to their will without any condition and I’m happy, if I’m allowed to be their servant.
I submit to every real man sexually, I kneel down before him and beg for his delicious sperm. I love it when real men humiliate me and use me for their satisfaction or only for their fun. I enjoy it when I expose myself to ridicule, kneel before the men as a submissive cocksucker and they laugh at me and mock me, when I swallow their delicious cum. I never say no to a man’s hard cock, I kneel down and suck any penis at any time and any place. Pump a load of your wonderful sperm down my throat, I swallow always. If you would like to fuck a fat butt, I’m ready to get fucked by any man at any time and any place. I beg every man to fuck my hole hard and leave a creamy load deep inside me. I’m a fat, impotent pansy sissy and a submissive cocksucker.
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