It's Hard Out Here for a BBW....
Ever since I can remember, I was the chick in class who received love notes from hot guys...to give to my cute, thinner friends. I can't count the number of times I got excited about a guy suddenly walking with me in the hallways from class to class, only to find out he was only fishing for information about another girl. As I got older, I began to just accept that I was going to be considered invisible to most of the male population.
It wouldn't be such a bad thing to be invisible...if I was already married, or, if I had a low sex-drive. But, the fact of the matter is that I am usually climbing the walls with horniness and going solo at the moment.
In triple x locker room terms, I guess I would be considered cock-deprived. I find myself getting turned on by the roughest of men....guys who are gruff and tough and most women would cross the street if they saw. Not I. For me, a man with facial hair and strong hands, heavily sleeved, or stocky and intimidating gets me so wet. So many times I have caught myself wondering what it would be like if the hardcore guy standing behind me in the checkout line, decided to bend me over the counter and push his way into my tightness.
Oh, did I forget to mention that with the lack of attention comes a very smooth and slick and super tight slit? Or that I tend to come home every day with soaking wet panties and that kissing along can get me raring to go?
Going for periods of time without cock sometimes lends me to having to create more intense and vivid fantasies. Sure, I love to kiss and please my partner. I love to look up at him with my pretty eyes (a lot of people say they are!) as I lick every inch of him, waiting to hear him give that deep guttural moan. But, when all I have is my trusty b.o.b to help me, and averaging at least one orgasm a day, my fantasies have become even more hardcore...and even scary to me at times.
Today, after surfing the lovely xhamster site, and seeing my fill of gang bangs, cream pies, and all sorts of debauchery, I find myself wondering what it would be like if I allowed a partner to blindfold me and take me to a local sex club. What would it be like if I allowed him to bind my hands and invite the men in the club to touch my wetness. I LOVE to have a man's fingers inside of me...sometimes even more than their cock (fingers never get tired!!), and since I can't get more than 2 of my own inside myself, most men make me feel even tighter and a serious finger fucking can leave me a little swollen the next day. But feeling my swollen lips as I ease in and out of my car only makes me wetter when I think back to how my lips were touched and teased.
As I laid down on my bed for my 3rd orgasm of the day, I thought of the gangbangs I had viewed on xhamster. I imagined my eyes being blindfolded, and wearing a classy and more low-key one-piece lingerie camisole that accentuated my 42d breasts, and stopped a little bit below my super fat ass (which I think is a good thing). I imagined my partner easing me onto one of the metal tables at the sex club...I love the idea of my hands tied above my head, and his hand firmly around my throat---the idea of a man exerting his strength in a mild choke is so fucking hot---while he instructs me to open my legs and show my freshly shaved pussy to the room full of men.
I rubbed my clit and imagined him telling the men to come and touch my tight pussy. I wondered if the men would find me attractive, despite my weight. Or, would they see my weight and my super curvy thighs and ass as more of a sexual challenge---could they handle me? Could they handle my level of energy? I have rarely gotten tired during sex and rarely have I ever asked a man to stop because I was worn out. Ha!! That has rarely, if ever, happened. As I rubbed bob over the top of my clit, I imagined my eyes being closed, and all I could hear is the bluntness in their comments. What would the first man feel like? Would he touch my clit as gently as she needs to be touched (I'm very sensitive)? How long could he hold off before he slid a finger inside of me? Would he try to do more than 2? Would I be able to handle more than 2? And after seeing my full breasts, large aureolas, and hearing how I moan and sometimes beg for more if I get too excited, would he ignore my partner's directions, and try and stick his cock into me?
Or would a crowd gather around me (as I saw once with another woman who was being eaten out, but had the most annoying moan....sorry)as each man rubbed my clit and finger banged me. What would the men say as they heard me moan, and saw how wet each man's fingers became. Would the men try to push the envelope and get into that whole gaping thing? And since I am so tight, would that be possible? Or would it just excite the men more to see my darker, intense pinkness getting swollen as each man finger fucked me. Would my partner let them choke me? Would he let them kiss me and bite on my nipples? Would I get so turned on that I would beg for them to fuck me? Beg for them to lay me on my back on the table, legs bent at the knees and brought up to my chest, my wetness slowly dripping down my crack to the table? Or beg for them to stand me up, in my cute heels, bent over the table, my full ass visible to them, and my legs spread open wide so that my tightness would be evident and enticing to them?
As I thought about the roughness in each man, his fingers pushing deep into my tightness, how it would hurt a bit as he tried to stretch me out, how wet I would get hearing the men talk dirty about me....as a purely sexual object that gets their cocks hard, how much they want to cum, how much they want to make me cum, I began to get wetter and I sped up my pace with bob.
It was so dirty to think of letting strange men push their fingers in to me. To imagine my partner standing behind me, with my ass on the edge of the table, his arm or hand around my throat, hands tied, holding me in place, as each man used my pussy to get off. Within a few minutes I felt the wave begin. I didn't care if my neighbors heard me...what would they say? We heard a hot woman moaning and we think it is you, so please stop? Instead, I think that if they heard me, I probably excited them because I have that type of voice, and I probably helped to get their partner's excited during their own lovemaking sessions.
Since I had already come a couple times before earlier, I could feel my muscles get so tight and I could feel the orgasm almost being pulled out of me. It was so intense I felt my knees being drawn up to chest, rocking back and forth, and shaking with each clenching motion of my pussy. I couldn't help but moan loudly. It felt so intense and good, and I immediately pushed two fingers deep inside my wetness, because I am even tighter after I orgasm. I tried to imagine that tight feeling being from a man's large and hardcore and strong hands trying to stretch me out....fantasizing that after they felt me clench around two of their fingers and the inability of my pussy to take 3 fingers, they would have to push their big cock into me, and stretch me out. I would hear them tell me to spread my legs like the little tease that I am, and feel them fill me with their eagerness to be rough and hard and to cum.
Even though I have only thought of a gangbang in terms of maybe 2 or 3 guys (usually famous actors or men I find attractive IRL) and a very slow and sensuous and respectful love-making session (i.e., no rough blow jobs, no dirty talk, things very slow and easy and the men being soft and gentle), I now feel like the idea of being finger fucked at a sex club (or another adults only venue) while being held down against my will (not really), to be so exciting that I have to give it more thought for the next couple or three or more orgasms I have today.
This is my first story I have shared on a forum such as this. I would appreciate any of your comments or suggestions. Since I have always written dirty stories since when I was younger, I have considered maybe writing erotica under a different name. Your advice and commentary would be awesome!